Back To The Start

Chapter 6

Dear Nosaka,

I knew I would have to do this sooner or later but it's time for me to let go. The first time I met you, I didn't have a strong opinion on you or anyone. I just thought you were like the others but in my eyes, something is different about you. I brushed off this feeling because I thought it didn't have any meaning but after a while it started to feel different. You were so brave when you were sick and strong that you continued playing football. You didn't give up when it looked like everyone was against you. But I blame myself for not stopping you. For not stopping you to rest and recover and undergo surgery so no one would lose you. When you rejected me, I totally understood why. I can't force force you to love me, or to even take interest in me. I mean, all I was was a fan. Us meeting that day was probably just a coincidence. Any other girl could have seen you in that state and rushed over to help you. I know this sounds like a confession. It is. It's all the things I never got to say to you. Well not all of it but my reasons for liking you. You are strong, brave, independent and kind and someone I can look up to but, I guess I was just in my fan era or something. I was depressed when you didn't let me confess I'll admit. Everyone is. But I know those days where I thought about you, those that you came into my life, they helped me. They made me focus on you than on other things that were stressing me. I'd think about you and feel peace even though I never knew what you thought of me but, all good things must come to an end. We must all learn to give up someone or something we love. I have to thank you for those memorable moments and I'm sorry if I couldn't do anything to help you but I'll try my best for the team.
Anyways, I think it's time to let go.

Goodbye Nosaka-san
_____________________
~Anna

Anna's thoughts

*I'll give it to him when he arrives. If he ever arrives. All I know is it was time I let go. I can't take the pain anymore. It doesn't make sense that he suffers and pushes himself so far. I couldn't help when I knew I could and it actually killing me. He has a better shot with another girl who will be better for him. I couldn't help him when he need it. I couldn't convince him to stop playing football and recover. I'm hurting him. And it's hurting me as well.*

Anna slipped the letter into the envelope and put it in the desk drawer, then she made her way downstairs for lunch.

Nosaka's POV

It's been nearly two weeks since my operation. The doctor says I will be discharged by tomorrow, just in time for the match against Uzbekistan, and according to updates from Kazemaru on the team...things haven't been looking good. I've already instructed Kazemaru-san to teach them a new tactic that could help us beat the Eternal Dancers and I have done my analysis on the team but the real problem here is yet to be known. Something or someone is working behind the scenes to destroy us and we need to find out who it is before anyone gets seriously hurt.

Just then, the nurse came in for the daily check-up. She asked me how I was feeling and stuff like that. After the checkup, she told me I would be able to leave for Japan the day after I'm discharged. That was great news for me because that meant I'll have time to finish analyzing our team's weaknesses as well and I'll be able to speak to Anna before it's too late to change her mind.