How do we feel sometimes

Falling from the dark skies into a crowded place ... Feeling lost and Lonely .. Millions of thoughts running through my head . . wondering why am I here ? . . Is everything gonna be alright ? . . . Laying down in my bed remembering all the good memories . . Waiting for things that won't happen . . My eyes are full of tears . . My hands are full of cuts . . Breathing but not feeling alive . . Depression has moved into my soul . . Hiding the pain from my school , family and friends . . But in the corner of my room I cry . . I cry for everything . . My eyes gets red ! People ask : are you crying ? Are you fine ? And then there's me putting a big smile on my face saying : yes I am fine . . Same lies same bullshit but different person . . Everyday it's getting harder to breathe .. Feeling empty in this world . . Faking a smile but dying inside . . Watching the world goes around me . . Living a nightmare . . Depression is the feeling when you hate everyone . . And all what you do is crying . . When you don't care about what's happening around you anymore . . When you feel weak all the time . . Yes! It's

Easier to cry than to talk about how do you feel . . It's easier to be alone then to be withô annoying people . . I am sick of being shy with no confidence I compare my self to other people what's wrong with me ? This is not the real me . . The world is full of fake people who will hate you , brake you , torn you , cry you a river , leave you , brake there promises , hurt you , judge you , laugh at you , let you down , disappoint you , make fun of you , give you a pat in the back . . I am scared ! Scared that people won't love me back . . I lost hope . . I forgot my dreams . . I don't know what to do anymore . . I can't deal with my pain . . It's killing me Please make it stop ! . . When I am alone I remember . . When I remember I cry . . When i cry I look in the mirror and I don't like what I see my tears are like the river it's keeps falling on my face won't stop . . Searching through the darkness for a hope . . Everyday I am suffering from the pain . . Falling apart into small pieces .. Barely breathing .. I hated my life .. I can't eat .. I can't sleep .. I can't enjoy life .. Everything sucks now .. People sucks .. Life sucks .. I sucks I wish it didn't hurt .. I wish I couldn't feel the pain .. I wish I was happy .. I wish I was smart .. I wish I had more friends ! Happy life where are you ? Why are you hiding from me ? I can't find you ! Written by @diedvoice