Dedicated to my mother.
I know you want the best for me. Want a better future for me. But why do you treat me this way. Making me think maybe I can't do what you wish for me. Maybe every time you try, I fail. make you look like a fool. But I'm only a kid. Sorry I can't do what you wish. At least not yet. I'm sorry that I embarrass you and hurt you. But I'm only a kid. I only know very little. I don't know why I was put on the earth, why I was given to you, or why I somehow love you unconditionally. But I was. And I do. But I do know that you love me. Even if most of time you're yelling at me. But then again most of time you're yelling at me to do better, to clean my room, brush my hair, be on time. just for me to do better. B.E.T.T.E.R. better. And I'm sorry I haven't been able to. naturally I'm just trying to get by, but you want better. and I want better for you. A better house, better job, better kids, better life. But in order to do that I have to be better. for you. Because I love you unconditionally. but I'm only a kid. But I'll grow and I'll be a bigger kid. I'll find my way to be better, like you want me to. I will mommy, I swear. Just let me find my way. I'll be better. I love you.
-A.M.
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I got in a fight with my mother today and it made me realize how much she actually loves me. How much she wishes I'd do better for her and the family. but I honestly don't know how to. but I'll figure it out someday. and I'll do better for her and my dad. Because I love them unconditionally.
