I swear nobody ever sees the good I've done, I just got told that I have to be nicer to people but people don't understand I'm mean to them because it's my way of humor I'm a fuking asshole because I dont know how to handle certain emotions, the only emotions I know how to identify if happiness, sadness and anger. I take my anger out on a lot of people and I feel bad but most the time nobody will give a shit. I've been nicer to a lot of people but nobody sees that because the people I'm nice to, don't care for or about me.
People only see the bad I've done. I'm more open with certain people, example my bestie and my boyfriend. Me and my boyfriend have gotten into many arguments and I tell him shit 24/7 but the second we are okay and we aren't fighting he just drops that shit and doesn't care a single shit bout what I said. I fuking hate the reality we live in.
I'm mean to people because I express my self that way because I've been around people who are mean to others and the others don't care so I've picked that habit up but people hate when I'm mean to them like I'm sorry I have trouble expressing shit while you already got fixed.
Why can't people just see the good I've done? And not the shitty things I've done?
I'm trying why can't anybody get that??
-Mymy
