My escape

chapter 4

School was the same, fights, drama, gossip, fake motherfuckers and of course I was on top of the list, starting with my brother wanting to fight, my ex grabbing me throwing me into the bathroom wall and this was all during the 1st to 4th period, I was already over it. The bell rung as I went to my 5th period as one of my brother friends walked up to me, “so when you gone take this dick”

“Never go talk to leak or reed”

“Loose booty niggas, bet yo shit tight”

“I have a boyfriend”

“where he at, ill fuck him too”

“Dom get away from me please”

“I’ll get in them pants soon”, as he laughed walking away heading to my brother as I took a picture of his ugly ass sending it to bar stirring up the pot a little saying, “he touched my ass, the guy in the blue shirt”, I was laughing in my head cause I knew bar would take care of it, hopefully or was I making trouble for him.

I had one more class after this one and I Pray nothing makes me irritated or angry but of course with my life it will be, “hello class, welcome back our old student Jalen”, everyone clapped since he was one of the kids who made our middle school top of the state also my horrible ex. “sit anywhere you want” as he scanned the room walking towards me, “wassup sexy”, he said talking to me as I ignored him”

“stop acting like that”, he kept talking to his self as I just focus on my work not carrying what he was saying till my phone started going off with text messages “why do he still got my number and Instagram”, as I wanted to text bar but I don’t wanna get him in trouble I just have to grow up and deal with him.  The class went on for some time till the teacher dismissed us since the bell wasn’t working, I grabbed my stuff about to walk out before I had the certain urge to pee. I quickly made my way to the downstairs bathroom since it was cleaner when I seen three of the basketball team members changing as the lead one spoke to me, “wassup, Jaden”

“Hey, Mack, Leo, mick”

“so I heard you dating our boy bar”, I was confused on how they knew that , I know bar wouldn’t tell them and I wouldn’t so how would they know”

“umm who”

“don’t act dumb, you left your phone sitting on the table and Leo saw it vibrate with him popping up on your phone “

“Um how yall know him”

“that’s My brother”

“ohh”

“don’t break his heart either”

“I wouldn’t do that”

“bet, not”, he said hitting my back before they laughed walking out with Jalen coming in as I seen in the mirror, “so what the fuck I tell you”

“get out”, I texted bar letting him know what was going on hitting send before he took my phone breaking it, “why the fuck”, as his right hand flew across my face as I couldn’t hold my balance but I was done being weak as I ran towards him punching him with him backhanded me into the hand dryer, “bitch did you try to hit me”, as he grabbed me throwing me on the way as he grabbed my hands as I elbow him in his nose before running to the door has he grabbed me by my shirt ripping it throwing me on the floor thank god it wasn’t wet, “fucking dirty bum faggot”, he grabbed my head and hit on the floor as I felt myself going unconscious from that one blow, “you gone take this dick”, I could still hear him as he slide inside me but going slow, “ima enjoy this booty”, as he stroked my hole before speeding up as I just laid there before I heard a loud bang as I couldn’t even move to see what it was, I just heard punches and slaps before I seen Jalen fall to the ground with a bruised busted face, “can you get up”, as bar brother and friends contained to beat Jalen ass,  I heard bar ask me “can I get up again “as he lifted my pants up as a flash went off, “gotcu fag”, Jalen said before bar looked outside to see if anyone heard as he carried me out to his car, putting me in the front seat, as he got in letting out a scream, “why you keep getting yourself in these situations”

“So you saying its my fault”

“I’m not but he just took a picture of us”

“I know but he might not post it, he might Just blackmail you”

“fuck I look like being blackmailed, ill kill that nigga tonight”, I stayed quiet knowing the mess I caused as I didn’t want nobody to die.

We drove off as I just kept looking at him, I tried touching his leg but he just smiled putting his hand over mine, “you good baby”

“I’m sorry”

“I know, I’m not mad”, we pulled into his house as we both got out as I waited till he walked over to the door to unlock but he stopped me l, “you ok”

“Yeah why wouldn’t I be”

“I just wanted to make sure you was good I don’t want you to think it’s your fault this shit keep happening to you”
“yeah it hit me when you said it at first but naw I’m good now”, he leaned in grabbing my chin giving me a quick kiss before opening the door walking in holding the door for Me as I followed right behind him.

We went up to his room as I seen him text his brother and his friend to finish Jalen and I was scared what that meant, “you gone kill him”

“naw ima just threatened him shake him up a little”

“ok just don’t hurt him”, he laughed as he pushed me off him as I knew I just irritated him, “where you going”

“I need to work out or something”

“Why”

“Do you not hear how you sound”

“What”

“you text me you in danger and you want the nigga to stay alive or for me to not take action like what type of shit is this”

“Its not like that”

“So what the fuck is it, I just gave my boys the word to beat that nigga half to death so he wouldn’t be able to walk for a week or torture you like he does.
“You don’t have to always go to violence each time”

“You really don’t know me”

“I do and I want that side of you to change”

“You tryna change me”

“No that came out wrong”, he walked away as I screamed into a pillow flopping on the bed, I went to go to take a shower letting the water hit me before getting out throwing on some shorts before walking downstairs seeing he was outside lifting weights, “hey”, I said as he ignored Me, I just sat outside on my phone scrolling through Instagram with niggas from school in my direct message. I texted some back as I looked up at him as I signed walking back in the house packing a bag, “you think you can have someone on your side during your worst times but everyone just want to blame you, use you and so forth im so over my life right now”, I texted one of the guys back who wanted me to come over and sleep over cuddle up with him as I said I will, I grabbed my bag walking downstairs with him no paying attention in the kitchen making something as I walked out waiting for him to pull up which was quick as I jumped inside his impala, “hey, wassup I’m Justin”

“Jaden”

“nice to meet you”, I don’t know where this was going but we just stayed quiet as he started singing along with the song ill say he had a beautiful voice, “you can sing”

“yeah I try”

“You sound great”

“Thanks, tryna focus on it as a career”

“I think you should”

“I’ll take that in, thanks”

“So what made you hit the new gay boy up”

“cause you don’t seen like you ran and tell”

“How you know”

“I just know”

“you know about bar right”

“Yeah I know but I ain’t scared plus you need someone your age”

“So your tryna cuff”

“naw, I’m not tryna be yo friend but also if you want get dick every now and then”

“So friends with benefits”

“yeah but tonight I just wanna cuddle with you”

“but what if I want dick”

“then guess you gotta find another nigga tonight”

“wow”

“what”

“Wasn’t expecting that answer”

“like I said I wanna get to know you as a friend not all that other shit”, we talked more and more about each other as bar kept calling me as I got annoyed turning my volume off then my brother friend started seeing me dick pics and I was so over my phone I just turned it off, “why you do that”

“I hate being gay sometimes”

“Why”

“Everyone just wanna use my mouth or my ass, nothing real”

“oh sorry”

“Its cool at least your getting to know me”

“Yeah, im glad I can but let that nigga bar know no drama but if he comes with it I’ll bring it to him”

“Ill keep that in mind”, we arrived at his house as we got out as I seen his bugle from a mile away I didn’t know if he was horny or was that just him on soft. He opened the door as it was weed and balls smell, “aye ma said she gone be working overtime”

“that’s cool”

“this the little gay nigga that came out, huh”

“His names jaden”

“You fucking him”

“Yo chill”

“I’m just asking, he thick as fuck”

“I don’t mess around with dl men”

“my brother dl but you still here”, I got quiet and just stood there slow
“you can head upstairs ill be up after I beat my brother ass”

“yo chill I don’t want no drama”

“Then stop being disrespectful”, he said as he walked behind me show me to his room as it was nice looking but messing, “don’t judge me”

“I’m not”

“you are”, he said laughing taking his jacket off showing off his bird body but it was cute, his arms though were beefy, “you don’t work out your chest or stomach”

“naw you don’t like what you see, its cool if you don’t everyone get turn off from it”

“Why, its cute”

“Cause everyone wants abs and shit”

“You right, but I like it”, he stripped to his underwear as he most definitely was soft but it was hanging, he climbed into bed as he signaled me to join him as my phone kept going off, “give me one moment”, I walked to the bathroom answering the phone, “hello”

“So you leaving with other niggas huh”

“well the nigga who I was staying with was being petty and a bitch so I left”

“you really got me fucked up, I ain’t one of these niggas in yo high school”

“I really don’t care”

“Ima beat yo house then his ass, stop playing with me”

“whatever”

“Ok whatever, the nigga you with got a bullet in his name”

“he not worried”

“He betta be”, I hang up walking out as he was flicking through the channels as I started to take my clothes off, “you sure about this”, I said being scared what bar said

“yeah, that was bar that’s why you ask”

“yeah, he said he got a bullet with yo name on it”

“I aint worried, he wanna shootout he’ll get one”

“I don’t want you to get hurt”

“I’ll be cool, don’t worry about me, come here”, I said walking towards him as he wrapped his arms around me as we laid in his bed eating twizzles and watching over the hedge.

As I seen he pulled his phone out right in front of me with unknown number texting him, “so you with my nigga, you fucked up”, he deleted it but I knew that number and I really wasn’t worried cause his arms was around me but I was somewhat scared for him.