" when people ask "how you are " what is the real question to that do you just brush it off and say oh yeah I'm fine or do you actually break down and cry in front of them when you thought you was really fine , does that make you feel alive yet do feel like living or are you still at the end of that tunnel still fighting the urge to be alive, do you get that feeling like it doesn't matter what you do it doesn't seem worth it or matter , but you still continue to fight to show how strong you are you can't give up now but you hear that little voice saying give up how do you continue fighting when you hear that every single time when you try to get stronger you can't, it seems like every day you are fighting you are crying you live inside your head and it gets fucking dark , all you want to see is lightness for once but you can't "why" is all you say is this living or dying which is it cause it doesn't feel like living it feels like dying more , all you wish is to god to save you but all you hear is silence "why" , why didn't god do anything why is there nothing but silence I beg for one word from him or one sign i get nothing back, why should I beg if I hear nothing or see anything, but i don't give up I wait till I do cause I know there's more to life then giving up ,life can change in a split minute but I know I can't give up , my life is waiting my dreams Is waiting , my future is waiting , if I ended it now what would happen to All that my future would completely gone and my dreams they won't be fulfilled, so I couldn't give that up now . I know my future here ,this is living from now on until my last breath.
