Stand Still

Stand Still (chpt1)

(Fern's POV)

My eyes snapped open at the shove of a backpack against my shoulder,
"Already 4:50??"
I spoke out in a whisper, although no one heard me.
I slung my backpack over my shoulder and walked out of school to where I usually stay.

Now believe me when I say I'm not living, I'm surviving.
Unless you want to call living on an abandoned building's shaded rooftop thriving.
"I live up to my name, huh..."
I spoke out in a harsh tone. Fern, a small plant that loves shade, sounds just like me.

I stopped walking to take off my hoodie as the sun grew bigger, sweat dripping down my face. I hung my backpack over both my shoulders and found a public restroom I'd never expected to go in ever again.
"..I can't believe I'm using this bathroom."
I said with a shaky breath

Choosing the very last bathroom stall, I hung my backpack on the hook three inches away from me, I've always thought about the fact that these stalls are so small yet so vulnerable...Although it may just be me.
I carefully and consciously took my sweatshirt off and stuffed it in my backpack while pulling out a collared white shirt. I glanced towards the other stall feeling uneasy as I changed into the shirt that loosely fit me. As I walked out I saw two other men washing their hands while some other people about my age were hanging out in a corner.

I was very noticeable in my surroundings as I felt the cold water hit my hands, then splashed on my face. I could hear the snickering behind me making me instantly feel self-conscious. I looked up in the mirror and noticed one of the boys staring at me, but I walked out thinking nothing of it.

I made it back to my little rooftop under the shade and I lay down, just thinking.
"Haaaah~"
I sighed as I closed my eyes, listening to the blissful and vibrant nature.
Again, my eyes shot open as my ears twitched, I sprang up and saw the same group of boys I saw in the bathroom in the corner of my eye.
"Shit...What.The.Hell."
I mumbled
Why were they here? Are they gonna mess with me? Did they follow me?
My head was filled with questions, I was so spaced out that I didn't realize that they'd started making their way over in my direction.
"Oh that isn't good...uhm"
Out of instinct I backed into a corner and lunged my backpack towards my chest.
"Please don't see me, please don't see me"
I prayed under my breath

"Hey guys, look at the view over there!"
A boy with red-dyed hair yelled in excitement.
"God your such a nature freak"
Another boy, with black hair, said.

"Shit...what the hell do I do now!?!"
I whispered a bit too loud.

"Hey guys..did you hear that?
A guy with blonde-dyed hair spoke out, curiously.