I'm Fine

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Hello. My name is Stephanie Rodriguez.

Im one of those girls who don't really give a crap about anything.

I have no friends. That care.

No one knows how i feel.

I love God.

He helps me A LOT.

I can always count on him.

I love the Lord A LOT.

They both are amazing.

But i just wish life was easier..

People are so mean.

So rude..

They act like no one has feelings.

But we ALL do.

I am 16 years old. Life is hard. Yes. I understand most things.

My parents are divorced. Not happy about it. At all.

I have to deal with it anyways.

They divorced when i was 6 years old.

I was really young.

I didn't understand. No one told me things.

But when my dad left.

It broke me.

When i was in 5th grade i was not a good child..

Never did homework.

Ditched.

Etc...

This year, 10th grade, i cut my self with a razor.

Fell on the floor crying.

Biting on a rag.

Scared.

~6 нσυяѕ вєfσяє~

I just got to school. Feeling OK.

Not worrying about anything.

Next thing you know at Break.

A girl named Chloe. A Senior. Gorgeous. But a bitch.

She came up to me and started talking shit.

Telling people that if they were friends with me they shouldn't trust me.

At all.

I started bawling out tears.

Thinking no one could trust me again.

Then this boy George Allen<33

Cutest 12th grader.

Saw ME crying.

But didn't say anything.

Made me feel like no cared..

I felt like no one did.

I felt worthless...

When i went home

I took a shower.

Looked in the mirror.

Thought and Thought and Thought.

I took my dads razor.

Cut my wrist.

Cried.

Felt horrible.

I regret it. So Much.