Lucas and The Time-Traveling Fog The Party Animals!

Chapter 13 HeartBreaker

But on Saturday, the only thing I could wrap my head around was how in the world I was going to break my dad's heart, so to say, without making him not talk to me forever! Her! Not me. What am I thinking? It's always Liz, Liz, Liz! I want her and John to be friends, but I don't want to make it super awkward either....just natural.

So, there should be no problems, right? Wrong! After that day, I was so worried about me messing up again because my conversation with a boy went so well the first time. Who's to say it won't happen again. Now, it's only a day before the date, and I nearly gave myself a panic attack. To distract myself, I decided to call Liz's mom. The first thing she asked was, "Hey Lizzie, how did the mall go on Tuesday?" I could feel steam bursting out of my ears.

I told her with a little bit of attitude, "It went great. I had a lot of fun...how are you?" Now, I expected her to move on from this, but no, she wanted to stick to the girl's day topic for some reason that I don't understand. Until she asked me a very strange question, and that was, "Who made you upset? I bet it was a boy, wasn't it? Who is he?" I answered, "How did you know--" then stopped and simply said, "I don't want to talk about it." She didn't buy that and boldly stated, "Lizzz." Knowing that she caught me in a lie, I grunted.

She then said, "I'm your mother. You can tell me."

I sighed and replied, "Fine... I'll tell you. You're right, it is a boy, and his name is Robbie Shelton. He's a nerd and kinda quiet, really. I-well-Margie and I first met him with his buddy John on campus a week back. He's somewhat tall, has brown wavy hair, has the biggest glasses I've ever seen, and braces. Actually, he had braces. I noticed he got them off when I saw him on Tuesday at the mall where--"

She suddenly cut me off and practically finished my sentence for me by saying, "Where you tried to do something nice for him, and he didn't appreciate it? Am I getting this right?"

That's where I foolishly exclaimed, "Yes, exactly!" then asked her, "What do you think I should do?"

"Seems to me like you have a strong feeling about him, so I think it's best if you just tell him how you feel and ask him out."

"On a date?" I asked. "Can't," I stated.

"You Can't or You Won't?" She boldly asked.

Something about what she had asked made me lose my cool and got so defensive about it. I screamed, "I don't love him, though! What makes you think I do? You have no idea what I'm going through right now because I'm... I'm a.." Realizing at the last second that I had let my emotions of being trapped get the better of me, I held back the boy part and said defeated, "Girl.... while he's a boy and I-I-I can't be the one to ask anyway."

"Well, someone's got to, darling, because you and I both know he'll never do it. Sounds like he's too shy," her mom replied.

Maybe she was right, I don't know, but something about what Liz's mom said to me sounded so cliche about love and frustrated me to the point where I quickly told her, "Maybe calling you was a mistake. I gotta go" and rudely hung up the phone on her. I was shaking badly after that phone call. A part of me wanted to call her right back and apologize, while another part of me didn't.

I don't why I am acting like this... oh I bet it's those stupid girl thoughts messing with me again. Having these girl thoughts running through my head isn't easy, especially when it has some kind of control over me every now and then. If you want to know what that's like, try to imagine yourself being surrounded by a swarm of flies, and no matter how hard you swat at them, they just never seem to go away.

Just like this date, apparently, that I can't avoid. I can't simply sweep this under the rug, can I? I mean, this date is either going to be the death of me or the birth of me. Also, I'm in deep girl trouble as it is, and if my real mom ever finds out about me dating John behind her back. If she does find out...she might as well move out and not talk to me or John ever again, which is something I can't let happen. You wouldn't believe how hard it was keeping this secret. Between me being a girl and this date, I don't know which was harder not to spill. But the next day felt like I could crack at any moment, but luckily, I was saved when just a couple hours before the date, Margaret told me that she, Tiff, and Kim were going out exploring around the city and asked me if I wanted to join them.