You keep coming back into my life every time I think I happy you make me realise I can't be with anyone but you.
"Hey are you busy?"
"no, why"
"Ah never mind"
"never mind what?"
"I wanted to call you but that's be weird would it?"
"haha ok"
"You seem like a completely different girl from when we were dating till now"
"Or I've changed"
" I think we both have"
"Phoebe, I just went through all of our old photos, holy crap."
"Oh"
"Can I ask you a serious question and you can't ask me about it"
"umm, I gues"
"Guess*"
"Don't worry forget about it"
"Thomas?, are you sure?"
"Yea it's fine"
"You know you're the only person that ever calls me Thomas."
"Well then it's something for you to remember me by, aha"
"I hate it when people call me Thomas but it's strangely nice when you do."
"sorry"
"Don't be, it's nice."
"Haha"
"Phoebe, Is it weird dating new people or are you use to it?"
"umm, It's defiantly different"
"Oh thank f*ck I thought it was just me, sorry for swearing."
My heart has never raced as fast as it had during this conversation.
"Oh"
"Do you think we'd still be together if you still lived here?"
"Honestly I don't know. "
But I do know, I dreamt about us being together again a thousand times since we broke up. Dreaming about how much I missed you're lips and how much I wish I could hug you again and be with you. I have forever blamed this distance between us.
"Sometime I wish we did, it's weird here I hate starting new again I seriously think yeah we would have"
"Yeah I get what you mean"
"I don't think you do entirely"
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"It's just difficult being without someone I could share everything with trustfully. And sometimes when I'm thinking about life, I still think about you and it's probably not the bet thing to do but I can't stop. You're too important to me. I mean I would have done anything for you and life is so different now, I just know somewhere along the line I fucked up and I shouldn't have I don't expect you to have anything to say about any of this. I just thought you should know."
"Thomas..."
"Phoebe..."
"What does all of this mean?"
"It means you are in the presence of an idiot who loved you too much then broke his own heart and he did a good job."
"Thomas, why would you do it then?"
"I thought it wouldn't hurt as much if I left you instead of you doing it. Because I knew it was going to happen I should of just left it, shouldn't I?"
"But you have moved on haven't you?"
"I thought I had."
"Are you okay?"
"I'm probably just being stupid, I dunno. I also don't think I could move on really. I mean, you were everything to me."
"You were everything. Everything, to me."
"My heart shouldn't be racing should it? I'm such a dick, I'm sorry for everything, you don't deserve this shit from me."
"You're not a dick."
"Eh, Debatable"
"You're not a dick."
"Can we just pretend I didn't say any of this ad save myself the embarrassment?"
"Fuck, don't hate me, I'm going to regret asking this, but do you still love me?"
"Yes, I do."
"Oh"
"Wait, do you..?"
