Here I lay in my bed. Thoughts rushing through my head. The monster that is sleep haunts me. My eyes filled with tears. The sound of the night never sounded sweet. My tears fall for no reason yet I do not stop them. I cry a cry knowing I will never be comfortable crying in front of those I love and cherish. So I cry. I cry all of my worries and thoughts away that kept with me through the day. But I know they will never go away. I know there will always be a door of memories that says do not touch. If that were to happen it would be to much. And so I keep the feelings locked away in the tower. Knowing I will soon no longer have the power. The power to lock away the feelings I kept locked away all these years. These thoughts run through my head as I lay here in tears. Tears of which these people I call friends would never catch. I cry knowing my friends and family will not be here forever. I cry knowing that I will never have what people would call a normal life. The doctors appointments, the needles , the noises and machines. They have become to familiar to me. So I cry. I cry away the mask I keep on throughout the day of a happy girl. A ray of sunshine.
(Ty for reading. I needed to vent and idk if I will continue this. Goodbye 👋)
