Masks

Chapter 1

I was sitting in a bench in the park, thinking about mundane things in life, questioning myself....

WHAT THE HELL DO I WANT TO DO!?

Why is it so hard for me to find an interest in things, what is my goal?

You see my cousins are smart, heck even my little brother is!

But I...hmmm what am I?

I am always swept around by the adults decisions.

Like when they decide where I'm gonna study or other shenanigans.

Ever since I was young I could read peoples faces, their expectations, disappointment, anger, nervousness, and many more.

I remember my aunts husband leaving me alone in the living room to go to the bathroom, and I as a little kid am curious about a lot of things. So when I saw the tv unplugged, I plugged it back in, remembering how the adults did it, and I unplugged it again, then repeated the process. Until my uncle saw me, I could remember the face he made, nervousness and shock. While I on the other hand was just staring at his face.

Memories.

When I was young I would always copy what the people around me do.

I would watch tv, try to copy the things I thought was cool.

I know was not the only one who was doing this... right?

Even the bad things villains in a cartoin does or when the good guys when they get angry, they turn BEAST MODE. Just like my mom.

When I did something wrong she would carry a belt, a slipper or a stick, and she would smack my butt. Ouch!

I was pretty much easily influenced by the things surrounding me.

My parents were looking for a school for my second grade, and a lot of those places were public schools, there was one public school that they wanted me to go too, but I was scared because of how roudy and loud the place was.

So it was a no.

My family goes to church every Sunday, and that church has a school, it was private and the environment is pretty good.

There was one problem though, it was MONEY.

Since it is a private school, it was bound to get expensive. My parents asked my aunt if they could borrow money for my tuition. So she visited me and asked me to decide. I saw my parents expectations and I also kinda wanted to go there, so I said yes.

And that was the first time I had a hard time deciding. Little did I know I am going to make a lot more decisions for myself, that I am going to regret.

Thank you for reading.😊

Author M.

Btw I woke up this morning finding out that MoonBin from astro who was my bias, died.
I was very sad to hear the news. Condolences to his family and friends.