Hunger

Candles burnt down to the floor
Wearing less than you wore before
Shoes sitting by the door never put them on
We would stay in my house for days
Spilling breakfast on pillowcases
Your stuff don’t taste the same
Now that you’re gone

You ended it
I didn't even see it coming

I thought
we would start a new chapter
Together
But you kicked me to the curb
Without much of an explanation

I know I said that I needed a change
A break
But I don't need one
From you
I thought that was obvious
But apparently
You need a break
From me

Numb
I can't feel
Because if I do
I will break apart

All these memories
Of us
Flashing before my eyes
Like a never-ending film
Without a happy ending

Precious moments
Just the two of us
Hiding from the eyes of the world

Candlelight, no clothes
Just you and me
Lost in each other's embrace

That's gone now
I'm panicking
Then I get angry
How could you do this?
How could you stop
loving me so suddenly?

I guess I’m prone to overthinking
One thing goes wrong and I can’t adjust
I’ve lost the taste for the good in us
And I’m sorry

Where did it go wrong?
My head is a mess.
I stay up at night
Going through every millisecond
Of our relationship
Analyzing
Crying
Cursing
How did I miss the signs
That you're over me?

We had a hunger then only each other then
Couldn’t get enough when we started
Always a hunger then now it’s just emptiness
We were in love, we were starving
We had a hunger then

I can't keep my distance
I have to feel
Your embrace
One last time

If I had known
That it would be our last time
We had sex
That night
A couple of days ago
I would have cherished
Every second of it
But I didn't

The thought
Of not feeling
Your lips against mine
Ever again
Is breaking my spirit

It makes me
Unable to breathe
I have to kiss you
One last time

Feel that hunger again
Your body pressed against mine
Your hands on my hips
Reaching the stars

I despise myself
For my weakness
I'm scared
Of rejection
The humiliation
If you turn me down
You don't

It's almost like you initiate it
I guess you're just horny
No, that's not it
The desperation
In your eyes
In the way you touch me

The hunger
I think I would have died
If I noticed
That it had changed

But you look at me
Like you always have seen me
And I'm confused

But it doesn't matter
You ended it
You don't want me anymore
This is just attraction

I get to kiss you again
Hold you
Feel you inside
It's breaking me
But I can't stay away