Tie my Heart to yours {EarthMix}

Zen And Dao

Song: Sad Girl - Lana del Rey

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Earth sighed at his phone, turning around on his other side in the king-size bed. He pulled the blanket up a little higher to cover his chest, snuggling under it more while his mind was running a hundred kilometers an hour.

He had tried, really tried, to fall asleep. But sleep seemed to be something his body and mind disagreed on, the latter bombarding him with millions of thoughts. Of course, after the call he had started checking out other sns as well. He had found a pretty understandable and, to his surprise, convincing youtube video which presented all the glass-clear evidences on the case.  It was... almost startling to see all pieces of the presumed evidence put together, something that reminded him much more of a murder investigation than just fans trying to figure out if they were dating. The conclusions on most websites and videos had been... similar though: Mix, according to them, had a huge crush on the older and was now trying to step up his game by becoming his acting and ship partner...That much they agreed on. Where the opinions were divided was on whether or not the feelings were mutual, if they already were a couple or if Earth was single.

It had been a while, probably three years ago, that Earth had come out as pansexual, had openly answered an interview question where he admitted feeling attracted to the person itself no matter their gender. That he saw someone as a being, not as men or women, and would pick a soul that fit his the best. It hadn't been something he planned to expose... but all in all Earth felt comfortable and received a lot of support. He was grateful... especially since everything was live and the comments they started reading on air were really heartwarming...  Earth had been fine, barely able to hold back tears but he had been in a position to keep his calm until this one comment made him cry on air:

Loving someone for their soul feels like the purest kind of love humans can experience. I hope you will be able to find this person and we will always hold your hands and walk with you <3

Thinking back a soft smile spread on his lips and he sighed. Being accepted the way he was, had been something he thanked the gods for every day. Of course... he had been in the BL industry for a while by this point already and many curious interviewers had tried to get an answer out of him whether or not Earth was actually gay. Avoiding those had been his first move... because honestly he wasn't sure, hadn't been sure...  questioning his own sexuality for a long time. Mew had been the first to know of all of this, and if it weren't for his words, Earth would have likely stayed in the closet much longer:

People hate others for any reason they can think of. Those that love you, those that carry you in their hearts will never hate on you, will support you in finding your true happiness, no matter what exactly that means.

Earth sighed softly, placing the phone on his nightstand and plugging in the charger. If he wanted tomorrow, correction, today to go well... .he had to get at least some sleep. Sure, his usual 8 hours were out of question, even the minimum of 6 that he usually needed to function relatively normally were far from an option. If he was lucky, really lucky, and instantly hit the dream nirvana... then maybe 4 hours were an option. But it was just... Earth barely remembered a time when he was this nervous and even a bit anxious of an event. Sure, a little nervousness was normal once you started becoming big, being invited to international events... but this was... different. It felt different. Maybe it was just the fact that whatever happened tomorrow, later, was completely unpredictable to Earth. Or maybe... it was the fact that he had never had such a ... unusual relationship to his ship partner before. Perhaps, it was both, Earth had to admit.