Journal of life

Trust

You held my hand when I started to walk
You were by my side when I used to cry
So why did it change so suddenly
Why is there hate in your eyes
You can't even bear to look at me without sighing out loud
Things are changing and comfort is what I seek
Your love, your kindness, your support
So I look behind me
Where you promised years ago you would be
But all I see now is a void
It hurts to hear your deep cutting words
I don't know if it is your way of care
Or your way of hate
Though all I can say is that it hurts
Because I trusted you for support
And you pulled away without a thought
Trust is the thing that should hold us together
But how could I trust someone who says no one can love me
How could I look for comfort from someone who looks at me with disgust in their eyes
I try to apologise for something I haven't done
And you are not ready to forgive me for a crime I haven't done
They say you go to your mother when you feel alone
But what can someone do if their mother makes them feel alone

All the scars are never gonna fade
All the tears are always gonna stain
I want to hate you with all my might
But how could I hate my mother who used to hold me tight
This isn't how it was supposed to be
It isn't how it was meant to be