Now that the summer is almost over it's time to go school shopping and if you've ever gone with your grandparents just know the shopping was very different and frustrating my papa couldn't get enough of Payless and didn't see the reason for paying more than 25 dollars on shoes Crazy !! Yeah, I know that's what I said but my papa always said to be grateful so I didn't complain much about something I didn't really like just agreed to save myself the lecture. Thankfully I had one friend a real friend Hazel she had been my girl for a while we had a complicated friendship lol that even I didn't understand. Hazel grew up similar to me and she was the person who I knew understood me and my frustrations. Having Hazel as a friend was interesting she was kind of harsh but very honest. At times I thought she despised me but it was her upbringing she was just trying to look out for me the best way she knew how. Dealing with Hazel's family you have to have thick skin and not be so quick to take offense. The families we were born in taught me a lot. That family wasn't just those related to you and sometimes the ones related to you don't deserve the luxury of considering themselves to be a part of my family. This was something I learned rather quickly. My Mom unfortunately was one of those people at this point. She was constantly telling me that I was going to be like her, and I hated it. As far as I was concerned, she wasn't a good person let alone a good mother. My mom was the first bully I ever came in contact with. She made me feel so low and every comment seemed to hit lower than the last.
A Blur
So, for some odd reason I only remember certain events in my childhood with that being said this is how I remember middle school. I remember being very excited since hazel was already attending the middle school, I was going to. Hazel was year older; she already was familiar with middle school we lived so close to each other we decided to walk to bus stop together and meet after school to get on the bus and come home. I was so lucky to have hazel if not I'd be very lost I was in orchestra in elementary so I continued in middle school I enjoyed the class and band as well I thought maybe if I was more involved in school activities my parents would change their minds on not being present. My dad hasn't returned any calls from me and my papa. Hazel made sure to constantly remind me if they wanted to, they would, and those words cut a little too deep for me.
As the days went on, I was involved more than ever and that changed nothing guess hazel as right but I kind of like this guy in band class lame I know :/ but he was super cute and confident very a little cocky some would say. I definitely didn't fit in, but I found two other girls in band class who seemed to be nice and cool people to be friends with they didn't seem to be like everyone else at first. Amanda played the flute and Ariana played the trumpet like me. So I would tell them about how I thoutht the drummer guy was really cute andthey agreed. Ariana would ask what am I waiting for? And honestly I dont know maybe him to aproach me which is how I thought it was supposed to happen. Ariana would tell me make a move before some else do. Seventh grade came quick and I was kind of relieved but also nervous. Hazel was and eaith grader and that ment next year I was by myself well I still had Ariana and Amanda but Hazel was the one person I was sure of. So one day I told Hazel about the drummer boy and boy did she give it to me. Defiently goinng against everything Amanda and Ariana were saying
