Sai and Satya were on duty at the hospital when they were informed of a patient who had attempted suicide. Upon arriving at the hospital room, they found a young woman unconscious and hooked up to machines, fighting for her life. Satya was visibly disturbed by the sight, yet again, feeling suffocated and helpless.
Sai noticed Satya's unease but attended the patient first, Satya walked away immediately. Sai and a few nurses did the needed and kept her for observation. Sai saw Satya sitting in his cabin staring blankly at nothing. Sai entered and sat infront of him. Without a word. Satya looked at her, his eyes filled with tears, and said, "Log aise kyun karte hai? Sai. Agar unhe kuch milta nahi hai toh apni zindagi khatam karne ka faisla kyu lete hain?" He shook his head in despair, "aur chahkar bhi hum inn logon ki madad nahi kar paate hain, kaise samjhaoun inn sabko ki khudkushi karne se kuch theek nahi hota, unka ek minute ka faisla unke apnon ke zindagi tod deti hain "
Sai listened calmly, from his past breakdowns she knew Satya had lost someone to suicide, she then said "Jaanti hoon Satya, lekin hamre liye jo galat lagta hai, kya pata unhe us waqt sahi lagta hai? kya pata unki zindagi mein aisa kuch hua ho joh unhe aise decision lene par majboor karti hai? Lekin, hum unko bachakar unko ek nayi zindagi toh de sakte haina?." She gave him a reassuring smile.
Satya sighed, "jinko hospital mein treatment ke liye le aate hain, unhe toh hum bachalenge Sai, lekin har baar toh nahi na?"
Sai looked at him with empathy, "Satya, lekin jo humse ho sakta hai, woh toh hum kar hi sakte haina? Ab chalo, Uss patient ko tum hi treat karoge, uska case history main batati hoon, aur uske uthne ke baad uski problem ke liye koi solution dhoondne ke liye hum koshish karenge."
Satya straight away nodded a no. Sai got up and pulled him to the patient's room, just then the patient suffered from fits, both Sai and Satya rushed to help and were able to revive her. Though Satya rushed to her as an instinct to help, he unknowingly overcame his fear of seeing and treating suicidal patients.
After a long day, Satya and Sai were sitting on a bench outside the hospital, taking a break from their duties. Satya was quiet and lost in thought, his eyes fixated on the ground.
Sai noticed his unease and asked, "Kya hua Satya? Tum theekh toh ho?"
Satya took a deep breath and looked up at Sai. "Mere andar ka dard bahut gehra hai Sai. Kabhi-kabhi toh mujhe lagta hai ki main isse seh nahi paunga," he said with a heavy heart.
Sai put a comforting hand on his shoulder and asked, "Kya hua tha Satya? Kya baat hai jo tumhe itna pareshan kar rahi hai?"
Satya looked at Sai and his eyes filled with tears. "Girija...," he whispered, "Girija meri zindagi thi Sai. Wo meri sabse achchi dost, meri saathi thi. Hamne pyaar kiya tha aur 3 saal se hum shaadi karna chahte the. Lekin uske maa-baap humare rishte ke khilaaf the."
Sai looked at Satya with concern and asked, "Phir kya hua Satya?"
Satya took a deep breath and continued, "Girija ne khudkushi kar li Sai. Us din se mera zindagi khatam ho gaya. Mujhe lagta hai ki main kabhi khush nahi ho paunga. Uske bina main adhoora hoon. aur isliye mujhe yeh suicide cases se bohot dar lagta hai, girija ki yaad dilati hai. aur mere dil mein sabse bada dard toh yeh hai ki main usse aakhri baar nahi dekh paya. aaj bhi yaad hai mujhe woh pal, girija uske parivaar ke saamne, mere saamne, apni jaan se lad rahi thi, itni dard mein thi, lekin uski parivaar itni ghatiya thi, bas unki beti ko marte hue dekhte jaa rahe the. uss pal mein bhi usne mere haaton ko thaamne ki koshish ki, lekin, lekin" Satya choked
Sai placed her hand on his shoulders to comfort him. "kisi ne mere sar par zor se maara, aur mein behosh ho gaya, uss halat mein bhi girija ne mujhe pakadne ki koshish ki jab woh khud mar rahi thi." Satya ended with a sigh. Sai already was in tears. This man who she thought was a clown in the beginning had been through so much. It was probably right, those who smile the most have the loneliest hearts and never-ending tears. They sat there for a while in silence, Sai had her hands in Satya's, and that warmth relaxed Satya. They were doctors, seeing death was inevitable, but they were also human beings, seeing their loved ones die was equally traumatizing.
