Still Trying

Chapter 1

I sat there dazing off in class and paid pore attention to the teacher who was lecturing the class about how we should start bring out back packs to school, even thou it was the end of the year.

We had about 6 weeks of school left till summer break, I planned on watching Netflix and eating food and hanging with my Best friend, Claire, Like i did every summer in hot California.

I heard a quiet and soft hushed noise behind me, It was Claire, "Hey...Can you come over today? Im having more panic attacks..." I slightly turned my head to see her afraid eyes. She got beaten at home by her father, Her mother died when she was 6, Her father blames Claire for her mothers death.

I replied in the same hushed voice she asked in trying not to get the teachers attention. "I cant Claire..Mom's making me babysit.." My heart hurt when the expression on her face changed from a slight happy smile, to a slightly worried frown.

I felt really bad about it, It haunted me, But i knew my mother would have got mad if i blew off babysitting again and go to Claire's, She says shes a bad person and i shouldn't talk to her anymore, I of course, ignored her.

The bell then rung and that was the end of 7th period, last class of the day and we could go home, I was dreading babysitting my baby brother, i love him and all but he can get very annoying very fast.

I walked up and started leaving the building as Claire finished some of her work, she stays at school a bit to escape the beatings her father gives her. I got out of the building and started walking home, picking up my brother on the way.

I arrived at my house with my little brother trailing behind me, I opened the door with my house key and seen a note from my mother. "Gone out to get groceries, Be back later, Love you both." Great.. Well at least we get more food, I was looking forward to at least that.

With that i made my brother a PB & J sandwich and sat down to watch T.V, my brother begging me to put on Teen Titans Go, Hes so obsessed with that show its almost cute, almost, I then dozed off to sleep while my little brother slept near me, we were so much alike but yet so not.

I awoke to my cellphone blaring my ringtone, i looked at the time, 7:15, ugh who calls this late?! I checked who was calling, It was Claire, I sleepily answered. "H-Hello?" I yawned. "Anna...Y-You gotta help me..I-I took 35 sleeping pills...Promise me you'll survive without me.." That woke me up real quick and i started to get worried. "What?! What are you doing call 911! You cant leave me Claire!" I got no answer and the line went dead.

I started crying, she lived 8 blocks away and creeps were out besides i cant leave my brother, I knew i couldnt save her but i tried, i called 911 and told them the address and they said they would get there quickly as possible, i sure hoped so.

I then remembered my mom, I walked down the hall to check if she was in her room, I peeked through the door to find her fast asleep, Whew. That worry gone now i gotta wait for a phone call from the police to see if Claire is alright.

I paced until about 7:58 PM and then the phone rang, I huridly picked it up and answered "Hello? Is Claire alright? How is she?" The answer they gave me, made my entire world crash to pieces, I felt my heart sink as i dropped to my knees letting go of the phone, allow it to fall to the ground.

This couldn't be happening, My best friend is alive..Right? No it cant be true..Shes my only friend..She is strong..She is alive! I called her cellphone, it rang multiple times before being picked up by her father "Who is this?" He grumbled drunkly, i then just hung up, I started crying and hugged the phone waking my brother.

"Sissy?.." he rubbed his tired eyes "Whats wrong?.." I shook my head barely able to breath i was crying so hard and my little brother hugged me, i hug him back so tight that i made his back pop and he giggled. "Dont cry sissy." he whispered to me softly.

The Day After Claire's Funeral

I wouldn't eat, I wouldn't sleep, I wouldn't speak, I dropped out of school a while back, This hurt in my chest wouldn't go away, and when i did go to school, i got bullied, i had no friends other thank Claire, my entire world has come crashing down and ready to kill me in the process, I'd be okay with that now, oddly how it is I'm ready for it..

I looked up at the night sky as i stood on the roof "Well death? Can you come collect?" I hastily swallowed more pills and gin as i cried. My mother burst threw the roof door and started yelling with a mixture of crying "ANNA PLEASE DONT DO THIS TO ME AND YOU LITTLE BROTHER KENNY, PLEASE BABY GIRL WE LOVE YOU!" I answered back with a shushed voice "Momma..I love you too but its too late..I already swallowed all the pills.." The horror my mother felt took place onto her face.

"No Anna...We can get your stomach pumped...It will be okay..I promise..You gotta keep the promise to Claire hun..She wants you to keep it.." I thought about it for a moment and started running over to my mother crying and hugging her. "Im so sorry momma!" She hugged me tightly and kissed my forehead relieved.

Authors Note: Hi everyone! I hope you enjoy it and I'll hopefully write more once i get finished with things tomorrow! This is the end to chapter 1!!