Mew's Pov
Gulf... my baby... I met him for the first time when he was 11 years old.One day my mother bring him in our home and said he was going to stay with us forever. Then later I come to know that his mother was my mom's best friend and his parents died in an accident. I still remember the dejected look on his face when mom bring him to our home. I can understand the pain of losing our parents because my dad also died when I was 10. So from that day onwards I was always there for him. But As the years went by I realised one thing, my feelings for him changed. I have fallen in love with him. The first time I realised my feeling towards him makes me terrified. He was a baby, literally he was 5 years younger than me. But I can't stop loving him.So I decided to wait for him... wait for him to turn adult... I promised myself that by hook or crook I will make him mine when he will turn 18. But when I was 18 I started to feel sexual attraction towards him.... sometimes when I was with him I feel like I will die if I didn't kiss him. I don't want to scare him with my actions. So I started to avoid him.I know my ignorance hurt him but I can't control myself when he was near.so I have to do this. But After sometimes he also stopped talking with me... it was like a cold war going on with us... ah it was after my friends visited my house... I still remember how gulf became jealous of May and pour juice on her... and about May she actually had a crush on me... she even proposed me on that night but I refused. but the thing that angered me is her calling gulf as my brother so I told her he is not my family... I mean by blood he is not my family and i don't want anyone to mention him as my brother. So I told her about how gulf came to my house and how I feel about him.firstly she was shocked but she accepted my rejection and we are still good friends. So after that day he stopped talking with me... I still don't know what was the reason... after few days I started to miss him so I tried to talk to him but he didn't even give me a chance. Our this cold war was noticed by mom and grandma and they always tried to bring us together.... then suddenly after a year gulf started to talk to me casually and I know that was just to satisfy our family. So things going like this makes me fear that he will hate me.So like always I keep a check on him. I know all his schedule, his friends, his teachers and what not.But that night changed everything... in my drunken state I forced myself on my baby. When I realised what I did, I don't know what to do... I don't know how to face my baby... I don't know what state he was....the only thought in my mind was to find him and begg forgiveness... but he was nowhere to find and for 2 days he was missing from our home. Mom said that he is in milds house doing some assignments, but I know he is avoiding me... it scared the hell out of me... and am sure that he will hate me... who won't hate someone who forced on them.The two days was a hell for me...I was restless and I didn't even go for work. When mom said that he is back I ran to his room. But when he see me he again tried to avoid me..though it pained my heart I still tried to talk to him and finally he allowed. When I talk about that night he started to fear something and am sure that I did a big mistake... so I asked him to punish me legally but he started to cry and said it was his mistake... his crying face broke my heart so I tried to stop his crying... I didn't get why he said it's mistake... maybe to reduce my guilt... so finally to calm down him I said him to forget that night and live like nothing happened and after that day we never talked.I act like nothing happened but I am broken inside... I know after this I don't have a chance with him... Who will accept the love of someone who raped him.... yes I still think I raped him that night and this guilt is also killing me inside... in the past I thought I will make him mine by hook or crook but now he will never became mine........but God have an another plan... that day when I met him in hospital I thought he was ill but when tul said he was pregnant. first I was shocked but realisation hit me that the baby was mine.... I was beyond happy... a tiny part of mine and him is growing inside his womb...but my happiness didn't last long.Tul's next words crushed my heart... gulfs pregnancy is risky and he may lose his life while giving birth... after hearing that I lost my mind... I don't know how I reached home. My only thought was to safeguard gulf. So with a pained heart I told him to abort our baby... but he misunderstand me and thought I was scared to accept the responsibility of our baby.. .. but he didn't know how much I want both of them in my life... and while arguing he fainted and everything happened so fast that mom and grandma come to know about everything... I can't even look at their face... As a solution to this, they decided to get both of us married. If this was in an another situation I will be the most happiest man in the world but now the guilt doubled... because of me gulf have to face this life threatening situation and upon that he have to marry me. And the only relief is that with proper care we can continue the pregnancy. And now we are married for 3 months and waiting for our accidental baby. Time fly so fast.
Sorry guys the update was little bit late..I am busy with some other stuffs, So the updates may delay for a while .. but I will try my best to update... so stay tuned with me 🥰
Sorry for the typing and grammatical errors 🙏
