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Shehnaaz put simple peak on his lips and pulled away. Sidharth was amused by her boldness, blood crept on her cheeks as she looked down. Back on being shy she was
He pulled her closer by pushing her hips against his. His one hand rested on her thigh and other on neck, she felt shiver ran down her spine when he rubbed his thumb over skin of her collarbone while his hand of her thigh moved back and forth like he was calming himself down
She bite her lower lip nervously before lifting her gaze to look at him only to realise he's staring at her with different look in his dark eyes. So much seriousness and intensity that she had goosebumps rising on her skin
"Let's sleep" He said, she didn't expect him to avoid situation like this. She can feel tension in room
"A-apko mein ab pasand nahi is tarha?" She couldn't help but think this way
He has no other reason to hold back according to her. Sidharth understood what she meant and was actually surprised by what's in her mind, why would she even think that. He has literally blackmailed het into married
"Don't tell me you can't feel hardness underneath you Shehnaaz. It's because of you I am fucking hard for you" He bring her face against his with hold on her nap
She can definitely feel it but decided otherwise thinking it might be just her. His unfiltered words did made her feel hella embarrassed, no one has talked to her this openly and sexually even he himself doesn't do it
She gripped on his shoulder and left out shaky breath when he run his nose down her neck inhaling against her neck softly making her go insane. She suppress her moan by bitting on her lower lip, he placed his soft and cold lips right above her cleavage and the little deep neckline she wore gave him access to trail down his kisses
His hands slipped under her shirt, touching warm skin of her body. Wave of pleasure wash over her when he pulled her against him harder, she can't think straight anymore with his bare hands sliding upwards getting closer her chest
"You have no idea what I want to do with you Shehnaaz. I want to fuck you like you are not my wife but some whore" He whisper against her neck, her breath hitched. He surely knows how to make someone feel wanted
"And let's say you aren't ready for that yet and I'm really afraid to hurt you" He kissed on her lips
She kissed him back even tho she disagree, she's old enough to be ready for having this relationship her husband. Nowadays even 17 year old knows what to do and what happens during intercourse she's no new. She also knows and is ready but she's too embarrassed and shy to it to him
He kissed her passionate and deeply with his tongue in her mouth dominating kiss. She moan against his mouth and he pulled back right after with some cuss words following behind
"Fuck, I need cold shower again" He carefully stood up making her stand as well
She looks at him innocently as he kisses on her forehead and went inside washroom slamming door behind. She stood there for seconds before getting in bed. He's holding back for her, she thought staring at ceiling above her head but he doesn't have to hold back. She has so much trust in him that he will never ever hurt her nor will let anyone else hurt her
And he was back after 10 mins. She winced pushing him away but he tired to keep his cold hands on her face. She kicked him away but he hold her by ankle and pulled her toward him making her yelp in fear
"Your silent treatment is something I must say dimag kharab krdiya mera. I can't do normal things properly anymore" He confessed and deep down he's afraid of her silent treatment and he will make sure she never does that again
"Good for you" She murmured to him
"And good for you ke mein tumhari zindagi mein hu"He smirked at her
"Meri zindagi kuch zyda he behtar thi apke ane se phely. Stress free thi" She said, he raised his eyebrow at her sudden confidence
"Theek hai jau mein?" He asked her while leaving her ankle and getting off bed. She immediately wide her eyes and shook her head
"That's what I thought" He said
He nodded with smile before getting back inside bed with her. He laid down and pull her against him, she kept her head on his chest and wrapped arm around him
"Ap maham api ko jante the phir bhi bataya nahi mujhe aur kya Zain bhai aur maham api sath the phely?" She looked at him through her lashes
"Topic never came and yes both dated in high school and university" He told her
"Toh break up kyun kiya?" She asked, he's not one to discuss someone else personally life but since she's rarely keeping up conversation so he decided to spill it to her but as short story
"Zain had fight with someone who said some inappropriate stuff about his mother and maham was witness of that fight so when principal found them he asked maham in front of everyone ke kisne phely shuru kiya fight everyone gathered there thought she will lie since it will get Zain suspend but she didn't lie and took Zain's name which hurt him and what made his ago hurt was some people laughed at him that his own girl friend didn't supported him to take revenge he fake cheated on her, as planned maham caught them and beat him with her sandals before breaking up" He told her whole story and she was amazed
She has seen Zain's mother who's beautiful woman and looks young for her age so it makes sense that university stupid boys made comment about her but she was kinda getting that, maham has always been someone who hates lying. Shehnaaz felt bad for Zain who failed to understand this in 9 years of relationship and she felt bad for maham as well who failed to trust her boyfriend who was with her for 9 years. They both have messed up
"Just itni si baat pe?" She asked, Sidharth nodded
"What if I do same thing tomorrow kya karoge ap?" She asked
"You better pick me over anyone Shehnaaz or else I'll kill other person" He threatened her. She hissed at his threat, why he's always thinking about killing someone
"Amna kehti hai humara relationship toxic hai is it?" She asked innocently. He mentally groan and wanted to smack amna for putting that in her mind. He's going to make Aryaan block amna than she can comment on other people's relationships
"Don't listen to her she's stupid kid" He said caressing her hair so gently. She hummed closing her eyes
