What if I didn't want them to go first
If I left first they would be sad though
There is no winning
I can't leave or be left
What do I do
I can't miss them
They can't leave me
But if I leave them first
I won't feel it
They will feel it
I don't want them to miss me or be hurt
They can stay
I'll leave for them all
If they go first
I might lose myself
If I go first
They might lose themselves
Do they care?
I hope
But I also don't
I don't want them to care
If they do they'll only get hurt
Distance is good
If I get too close again
It will hurt to leave
Or be left
I'm always left
The moment I leave
Everyone cares
But they don't care
When they leave me
It's constant
My pain
That's why I don't mind leaving first
Everyone has there own pain
I hope theirs is less then mine
I feel stabbed and damaged
But that's okay
I'll keep going
Only for them
If they even want me here
If they leave I will too.
