Your crime is against me

Capo(Gianna) Part 1

I must not fall in love.
I never fell in love with anyone. I was never interested in a relationship. I didn't believe it either.
My mother woke me from my thoughts. "Giana!" shouted my mother. "Yes?" I asked. "Your private tutor is on his way, get organized honey"
"Yes mother, I know. I'm getting ready!' I shouted. I never went to a real school. My father claims that it is not at my level to study at school, and that I am too smart. That's why I only have private tutors.
I brushed my blond hair, and rubbed my green eyes from sleep. I applied a little gloss on my lips, and sprayed some "Victoria's Secret" on my body.
"Giana my daughter, teacher Aspen downstairs! Please stop" my mother shouted. "I'm just changing my shirt mom!" I shouted back. "Hurry up!" said my mother. I took off my shirt and was left with only a bra. I sensed someone at the entrance to my room. Teacher Aspen was there. "Oh! I'm terribly sorry madam I didn't mean to!" he said shyly and closed the door of my room. Fucking son of a bitch.

I left the room and the man gave me an apologetic look. I barely nodded. "Sweetheart, Aspen told me about the incident, he apologizes" my mother said. "Yes, mother, he told me, I forgive him," I whispered to her. But deep down I didn't forgive him. I have experienced this before. My brother, Liam. He once saw me completely naked. I was only 11 years old, he approached me and kissed my whole body, I screamed and cried. But he threatened me that if I said anything he would kill me. Then he just raped me, after that I told my father about the case and he executed Liam. I will never forgive Liam for this despicable act, he scarred me for life. And that's one of the reasons why I haven't slept with anyone yet and I'm still a virgin. I studied together with the teacher Aspen for about five hours, and then I took a short nap. My phone started ringing. The name "Kelly" was displayed on the screen. Kelly has been my best friend since I was 3. I answered the call, and Kelly screamed with excitement. "Giana! You can't believe it!" Kelly said. "What happened?" I asked. "Is that the guy I told you about? He asked me out!" she shouted excitedly. "Oh, Kelly! It's great" I said. I was happy for her, I wanted her to have a boyfriend. Which is to say something I will never have. I have to marry according to the mafia matches, which means that I have to save myself for the wedding and I can't have sex with men. "Aren't you happy for me?" Kelly asked. "Of course I am! Why did you think not?" I asked. "Because you know.. you need to save yourself for the wedding and I don't" she said. And here, my anger started to climb. I wanted at that moment to go to her house and just slap her. God I don't have the strength for people like her now.

"I'm sorry I didn't mean to..." said Kelly. "It's okay, it's true anyway" I said. "no no. This is wrong. Gianna I'm really sorry" Kelly said apologetically. "It's okay, I'm not the Queen of England" I said. "Okay, but you're Gianna Alfonso. The daughter of the fucking capo" said Kelly in a serious tone. "Okay, I'm tired of being the daughter of, I want to be known for my own merits, not because of a motley mafia" I said.