Anyone else in this situation would say it was just awkward right? My vocabulary did not hold enough words to describe the feelings that were brewing up inside me. Love was the one that overpowered all the others though. I hadn't known Ryan for more than 24 hours but I knew I needed to spend my life with him.
Back to the kiss. Ryan kissed me and I didn't hesitate to kiss back. Our bodies fitted together perfectly and it was just perfect. I've used that world far to often in regards to Ross but it was true!
But, after the kiss was done, Ryan pulled away and sped out of the house. I understood that he might of needed to think through his actions and I needed to clear my mind too.
"Guys, I'm just gonna go out and get some air and shit." They nodded so I grabbed a coat and set off into the cold October evening.
I knew where I was headed. The forest. I've always come here to think things through. I knew all the trails so well, they were ingraved into my mind permanently. I took off and soon found myself in my usual clearing. I sat down on the wood floor, scattered with leaves in all colours, and thought through today's events.
Why did Ryan kiss me? Did he have feelings for me? I shook off that idea for about the 20th time today. Was he taunting me? Possibly although he doesn't seem like that kind of person. I was pondering some more when I heard a voice faintly. Was this person singing? I sneaked up behind the figure and just caught the last line of the song:
"But who could love me? I am out of my mind!" The voice was beautiful and melodic. The person turned around and it was the boy who had kissed me and ran off. I was about to say something when he interupted.
"I don't know why I kissed you earlier. I guess... oh, I don't know. I just thought, maybe you meant what you were saying. But I guess you were just taunting me." He hung his head sadly . "Well, I kissed you back, didn't that mean I liked you?" I replied. Ryan shot his head up and gave me a weak smile. "I kinda like you too Brendon but things aren't that simple." "It's okay." I reasured him. "Sure, people will call you gay and a faggot even more but it will be okay in the end." He reached for my hand and clinged to it, sending a spark through my body. I loved this boy so fucking much. "I love you too Brendon." Ryan grinned at me before I leaned in for our second kiss of the day. I have no idea how it was possible but that kiss was more perfect than the first.
"Do you wanna stay over mine tonight?" I asked him. Hey! I wasn't planning on getting in on this early in the relationship. Well, we're not in a relationship yet but oh well. Just, whatever you were thinking, that wasn't what you meant. Ryan seemed a little reluctant at first but then he gave in. "Sure." He smiled. We walked hand in hand to Ry's house, to get some shit.
Ryan's POV:
I went into my house to go get some stuff for tonight. But first I needed to tell my mom about me being gay. I've been gay for ages but I never had the courage to tell her.
"Hey, mom, I need to tell you something." I told my mom. "And you may wanna sit down for it." She did as I said and I just said it.
"I'm gay." I stood waiting for punishment but none came.
"Sweetie, I knew for ages." Huh? I'd never told her. "Because I just no things, okay? Now where is your boyfriend." I went outside to get Brendon. We walked back in, hand in hand.
"Hey, I'm Ryan's mom, Danielle. Happy to meet you." She grinned and Brendon. He gave a kinda shy wave back.
"Hai, I'm Brendon."
"I'm just gonna go get some things. Is it okay if I stay round Brendon's tonight?" I aksed.
"Sure. But no wild sex!" I blushed and ran up the stairs.
Brendon's POV:
I stood there awkwardly in the Ross kitchen.
"I'm not gonnaa bite y'know!" Danielle smiled. "I so ship you and Ry."
"You ship?" I asked, grinning,
"Oh course!" She replied.
"I'm back!" Ryan said.
"Ry, your mom's awesome!" I cried. Danielle laughed. I took Ryan's face in my hands and kissed him tenderly before leaving. I think Danielle was actually fangirling!
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