your favourite girl

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"Lila Aldin!" Announces Oscar Isaac "wins the best actor category"
I got up with tears on my face jumping from excitement. I turn to my left to Niall   who hugs me tightly as possible "go up stage they're waiting!" As I nod to him I go to stage.
"Congratulations honey, you win" says Oscar. God I'm in love with this man. As he hands me the trophy I go in for a hug, I could hear his soft laugh on my ear.
"Go give your speech Hun" so I walk with shaky hands, shaky legs, shaky voice
"Hi" and I burst into tears of joy, when I turn to my left I see Oscar smiling at me and nodding meaning go ahead. "Hi" I try to speak again with a clearer voice
"I'd like to thank you everyone today, I'm taking this in behalf of my other colleagues who couldn't be here today" don't cry don't cry, "and for people who supported me thro this incredible journey, thanks to Andrew" shit what am I doing? I can't thank my ex in front of my crush "who supported me every part of my life. I'm grateful to have him as a friend" this is so weird.
"And thanks to everybody as well, I couldn't have done it without you. Little lily couldn't have been more proud" I left the stage with the most mixed feelings ever. What the hell was that.
As I sit on my chair I hear Niall laughing
"What was that?"
"Oh like I know?" I roll my eyes
"Do you still love him?" Obviously not
"Obviously no" I didn't even look at him, I was just trying to make an eye contact with Oscar.
"I thought you liked Oscar" I scoffed
"I do" I turn to him in offence
"Then you better act like it" he makes a face and makes me look at oscar
'beautiful beautiful Jessica chastain, can you come to the stage to claim your trophy?"
Shit. Fuck that man I take a champagne,
"Woah slow down champ." Niall says laughing
"Where are you going after this?" I ask
"There's this after party at ******" I look to Jessica with rage as she playfully has a small talk with Oscar
"it's only for singers though" fuck, niall was still talking but I wasn't listening
" but we can meet up later?" Huh, oh alright
"Yeah I'll be there" I faked a smile and continued sipping my champagne.
After the show ended I followed Oscar

.....

"Hey?"

"Huh? Oh it's you" he wasn't smiling
"Where are you going?"
He laughs "somewhere that isn't your business" he lefts.

.....

"Hey?"
"Hi" why is he smiling
"I'm sorry, i-"
"I know what you're gonna say but no worries, we aren't even something It's okay. It's not like we're something important"
Oh. I'm not something important? This whole thing was, nothing? Whole 5 months..

....

"Hey, have you seen Oscar?"
"He already left m'am" said one of the staffs.
So I left. I had some drinks before I went to the after party Niall told me about.