NOT LIKE THE REST x TOM KAULITZ & y/n

Pt 9

I'm happy to feed into everyone's delulu selves we deserve it tbh

   We sit together holding hands on the bed while he flips through the channels. We land on something dumb and just watch because nothing else is on. He pulls me in closer and I lay on his chest. I can hear his heart beat and it makes me smile. He plays with my hair and I feel like I could lay here forever. I want to do this with him all the time. He makes me feel like I've never felt before and it's not just because of the sex. It's the way he looks at me. The way he makes me feel like nobody else exists but just us. The way he laughs. The way he smiles. Everything he does makes me want to be around him all the time.
   He scoots up and I get get off his chest and smile at him. He smiles back at me but his face drops and looks kind of sad all the sudden. Now I'm kind of confused because we just had such a good time.
"Are you okay Tom?" I ask him concerned
   "Kind of...I've been putting off telling you this because we've been having such a good time together..." he says looking into my eyes but his eyes look sad
"What is it?" I ask him more urgently
    "Well today is our last day here and then we are leaving to go play another city. We are only a little over half way through that tour. We still have to play other places around the country but I don't want to leave you." He says in a sad tone
   My face drops and my heart sinks. I don't know why I didn't really think about this until now but now everything is flashing before my eyes. Bumping into him, laughing with him, dancing with him, kissing him, everything. I don't know how to respond or what to say because now I'm sad too. I just look at him for a few seconds. I finally spit something out.
"I don't want you too leave either but I can't hold you here with me forever. I understand." I tell him trying to sound okay but it's hard.
    "I've never felt like this before and it's tearing me up inside just the thought of being away from you y/n" he tells me
"I've never felt this way either and to be honest I don't even want to imagine being away from you." I say and he just stares at me
   He looks at me for another few seconds and I look away because I don't want him to keep looking at me when I'm sad. We sit in silence for a little longer before he speaks up again.
    "Wait I thought of something and it might sound crazy and you don't have to decide right now but what if you come with us?" He asks me and his voice seems happier than it has this whole conversation
I look at him and smile. The thought of being with him all the time makes my heart skip a beat. I've never really left home so seeing the country would be really cool. But then I think about everything I have going here. My family and friends are here, I'm almost done with school, everything I've ever known is here. I don't know what to say. How do I just pick up everything I've ever known and just leave it? How would I explain this to my family? I know I'm an adult and I can make my own decisions but I've never had to make a decision like this before. All I know is that I don't want to be away from Tom.
"Again y/n you don't have to choice right now but I'd love for you to come with. You make everything better." He tells me smiling
"You make everything better too" I say leaning in and he gives me a kiss
Tom's phone buzzes and he says we have to start getting ready to leave. We kiss again and I get up and head toward the bathroom. He follows behind me and grabs the clothes he had hanging up in there. I look in the mirror and I'm shocked. I get closer to the mirror and notice I have hickeys all over my neck. I know he was sucking on my neck earlier but I didn't think he was doing it long enough to leave marks.
"Oh my god look at neck!! What am I gonna do? I don't have makeup to cover this!" I say frantically
"That's all me right there" Tom laughs
"It's not funny seriously what am I going to do??? People are going to know what hickeys all over me means" I say concerned
"Y/n it's fine don't worry. Think about it like I'm letting people know you're mine babe." He says pulling his shirt over his head onto him
I look at it again for another second and then look at him from the mirror.
"I'm yours?" I ask him smiling a little bit
"If you want to be." he says smiling back at me
I turn around facing him and he slowly walks toward me. He looks down at me and licks his lips. I look up at him and put my hand out for him to grab which he does.
"I was going to wait to ask you since we haven't known each other very long but I want you to be mine and only mine y/n." he tells me quietly
"I'll be yours until you don't want me to be anymore." I tell him and I get up on my tippy toes and he smiles big and gives me a kiss
"I don't think I'd ever want you to not be my girl especially now that I have you. You're mine and I'm not gonna let that go." He says placing his hands on my face gently and kissing me three times.
   I smile and he finishes getting changed and I wait for him outside in the room. He walks out of the bathroom but leans up on the doorframe looking at me. I look back at him and he's moving his piercing with his tongue.
"What baby?" I say to him smiling. When he plays with his piercing I get flustered by it.
    "Nothing I'm just looking at you y/n" he says softly beginning to smile.
"You still make me nervous sometimes" I tell him giggling a little bit.
    "I don't mean to make you nervous you're just so beautiful that I could look at you all day. You're the most beautiful woman I've ever seen in my life." He says looking down at the floor and then back up at me.
   My face gets warm and I smile. I have never had someone say something like that to me before. Especially not a guy like him. He actually makes me feel like I'm pretty. Nobody has ever truly made me feel that way. I walk up to him and wrap my arms around him and he puts his hands on my waist.
"You make me feel like I'm beautiful and that I'm worth something. Nobody has ever made me feel that way before." I tell him smiling a bit
    "You're worth it all y/n. You make me feel special. You like me for me. I don't come around that a lot so it means a lot to me. You know what I do and it hasn't changed how you feel about me. I like that a lot." He says pulling me in closer and giving me a kiss.
   Someone knocks on the door and Tom answers it. I don't recognize this person but I'm guessing they work for the band because they told him it's time to go. I grab my phone and put my shoes on and he grabs my hand and we leave. I'm excited to finally see him do what he's so passionate about. Just like the other night people are lined up outside of the arena and the guys start to get excited. I don't know how they do it because I don't think I could ever perform in front of so many people. We pull around to the back side of the arena. We hop out of the car and head inside. Toms hand fits so perfect with mine and I wish we could always hold hands. We get into the green room and just chill on the couch for a bit.
"Wow y/n those are some serious hickeys." Bill looks at me and laughs.
"Yeah Tom and her didn't do much relaxing when we got back from the radio station I heard them all the way from across the hall." Georg laughs and the other two boys laugh too. Tom looks at me and I just smile and look down.
"Hopefully you too can contain yourselves a bit for the rest of the tour." Gustav says and they laugh again.
   That reminds me of the decision I have to make about either staying here or leaving with them on tour. I guess the other guys just assumed I'd come with. I'm trying to stay in the moment but it's hard for me to do that with such a big decision. My heart is telling me to go with but my brain is telling me I'm moving too quickly. I don't know what to do.

Will y/n go with? Who knows? Find out later what she decides to do <3 next part coming today !!! Also I can't believe I've written so much like I'm really out here writing essays at my own will that's wild lmao okayyy I'll get one more part out today for sure and maybe another after that if I'm feeling extra productive haha talk soon xoxo