𝐇𝐔𝐒𝐇 𝐇𝐔𝐒𝐇, secrets (online diary basically)

man, i hate high school

heyyyy,
heyyy
how y'all doing...??

i know i haven't been here for literally a year but i had a ton of shit going on.

i'll make a list of things that happened

1) i no longer like yonathan, i looked at him on the first day of high school and he didn't make me feel any sort of way (go me!!)

2) whenever i had going on with johnny, is done. bro has not texted me about non school related topics since early march

3) this sophomore that i first thought was cute back in fourth grade is still extremely adorable, he was the gangster moonface martin in my school's performance of "anything goes" (he had me giggling and kicking my feet with that accent he used in the musical)

so my favorite sophomore, let's say his name is tony.
so tony is a class A cutie patootie, when i was telling my friends about this "favorite sophomore" and when i finally pointed him out they were like
"oh...him?"
"you could do so much better.."
"at least you think he's a cutie patootie"
but some of it went like this:
"you could totally pull him"
"he's not even real, you totally could get with him"
and stuff like that, i'm just confused because with EVERY OTHER GUY IVE HAD A CRUSH ON, i've never felt so adamant about actually trying to date him,
i don't know if it's because of that accent (that actually kinda lingers a bit in his speech)
or if he plays baseball
or his freckles
whatever the fuck it is- i gotta calm down
i'm currently a class A delusional teenage girl