(Stolas' pov)
I wake up with a start... a cold sweat covering my face as I sit up... my breath heavy and fast... a feeling of terror in my chest as I wake.
I realize that it was a dream... a nightmare... it felt so real... I wipe my face with my hands, trying to wipe the sweat off my face...
I take a deep breath... and look around... Blitzo is still asleep... I take a moment to collect myself... I don't want him to see me like this. I need a few moments, a few minutes.
A groggy voice came from the other side of the bed. It was blitzo. He heard the startled awakening of stolas.
"Stolas?.."
He sat up, rubbing his eyes and blinking back his vision.
"What happened?"
His voice is a comfort... even as sleepy as he is, it's still the one that can comfort me... hearing him, I start to calm down... I let the fear that was in my heart start to fade, but I'm still scared...
"It... it was a nightmare... a bad dream.."
My voice is shaky... I've never experienced such a thing before... I've never... had a nightmare or a dream this vivid before now... I'm scared in a way I've never been before...
Blitzo came closer, resting a hand on stolas' thigh.
"What was it about?"
The warmth of his touch gives me some comfort... but his question fills me with fear... the events of the nightmare come back to me now, and the sadness, the horror I felt... the dread... I don't even know how to begin...
I slowly look over at him... my voice shaken... but I feel the need to tell him... I owe him this much... I owe him everything...
"It was... Octavia..."
I feel my breath catch in my throat... there are tears in my eyes again...
"Oh... im... I'm sorry... was she... was she okay?"
My voice is shaking, and I can barely even speak... my throat tightens as I try to speak... the fear I felt in my nightmare... it's still there... it seems that the more I remember, the more the fear grows... I must get it out, I must...
I nod slowly... trying so hard to hold the tears in and stop my voice from breaking...
"Yes... she was..."
My voice almost breaks... but I stay strong... I must be strong... for Blitzo...
"But... it was scary..."
"Would you like to tell me more? It could help."
He's right... talking about it may help... but at the same time... I don't want to risk breaking down in front of him... breaking down and losing it... not when I've already made a promise...
Blitzo... he looks me in the eyes... his presence... his compassion... his kindness... he isn't going to shame me or make me feel less than if I broke down into tears, I know that... I know I can rely on him... He's here for me, and I know it... I nod...
"Yes... I would like to talk about it..."
"Okay. Well then.. come lay your head in my lap, and tell me what happened."
I nod and lay my head on his lap.... my heart skips a beat as I do, but his kindness... his thoughtfulness... his patience... it's reassuring... I feel I can trust him, and tell him what happened...
I look up at him, a little tears still in my eyes, and I take a few moments to compose myself...
"In my dream... I was with... Octavia... we... we had spent the night together..."
