niall horan one shots <3

🤍Baby your perfect~nouis🤍

Tw! Self harm
~3rd person~

There he stood there again. Looking in the mirror silently crying. He hated how he looked. He hated how he acted. He just wanted to be like them. Skinny like them. He knew he wasn't perfect. But that was no excuse for what he does

~Nialls pov~

I did it. It felt amazing. I was clean for 3 weeks exact only because of lou. Louis is the only one that knows about it, i now have to be careful around him, i cant let him know i just did this, he would actually murder me, although that wouldnt be too bad. I dont even know why he cares. I got out ofnthe bathroom and straight into my bedroom so nobody could see, i changed into one of my favorite over sized hoodies and sat on my bed scrolling through twitter, "gosh. People can be so rude.." i think to myself. I was "in the zone" until i heard my name
"NIALL!! DINNER!!"
fuck. What am i going to do. I get off my bed and walk slowly downstairs, i smell harries delicious food being made but that only made me want to throw up. I put on my best smile and jumped around the table chanting "YIPEE IT SMELLS GREAT HAZ!" i looked over at louis who was giving me a disoriented look. Liam helped harry bringnthe food out to the table then i noticed. My plate was bigger then theirs, do they think im that fat.. WHY ARE THEY DOING THIS TO ME. i saw louis's worried gaze while i look around the room, i took one bite ofnthe lasagna and immediately excused myself to go to the bathroom. I threw up. I heard someone coming upstairs and saw it was louis

~louis's pov~

niall was acting weird at the table. He never jumped up and down for food since 2010
And that was the long gone niall. The boys still see him as 17 year old him, i figured out what was going on. When i saw how big his plate was for dinner i immediately looked up at him in a worried face. His eyes were starting to water but as he took his first bite he went straight up to the bathroom, then and there i got so worried, i care for that boy jesus christ i fucking love him, i ran straight upstairs while the boys kept laughing saying he ate too much before and that they warned him about dinner, as i stepped foot in the bathroom i see niall sat next to the toilet looking as white as a ghost, i felt awful for him i took him in my arms as he cried into my chest, this was one of the best feeling ive ever had, him in my arms. Eventually he drained himself out from crying and fell right asleep in my arms, i carried him into my room, and took his top off so he wouldnt get too hot, then i noticed. no this cant be happening again! he told me he would stop, tears were starting to fall from my eyes as i see his cuts opened again. that could only mean ine fucking thing. he did it again. i ran downstairs to find the first aid kit while all of them were in the sitting room, harry yelled "whats wrong with him lou?" i couldnt tell him the actual truth so i just stuck with the old "he just has a pain in his stomach hes fine haz!" he isnt fine tho, hes draining himself out, i ran back upstairs and placed small kisses on his cuts then plastered them up, if only he could see how perfect he is to me, to the whole world. people can be so cruel why the fuck would the say that to my niall, to my everything, he did nothing hes the most sweetest innocent baby alive.

~Nialls pov~

i woke up to something holding my waist, i turned around and saw louis, i blushed deeply to see a sleepy louis, hes so perfect i wish could be him, hes so sweet and considerate to me, but its not like he likes me back. i gently got up so i dont disturb a sleeping louis, then it dawned on me. i was shirtless. louis took off my top. he knows. GOD SAKE HE KNOWS! HE KNOWS I DID IT AGAIN! hes gonna be so mad. i ran to the bathroom and look through the cabinets to find my razor, then i felt a pair of arms wrap around my waist, i instantly looked up to see louis,

~louis pov~

"why?" i asked him, tears start falling down his dull cyan eyes that used to be as bright as a star. i faced him towards me tightnening my grip on his waist, he nuzzled his head into my shoulder while mumbling "i just want to be perfect." before i could just think of something to say my mouth spoke for me and said "baby your perfect."