{|Why not me?|}Beomjun✔

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Yeonjun was in his dorm, scrolling mindlessly on Twitter. And then he saw something trending there. A song, and the strangest thing is that Choi Beomgyu's name was trending along with the song, and also another tag saying he is gone, plus another saying brain tumor.

He didn't understand anything. So he got on his notification bar and saw that Beomgyu posted a new video.

He clicked on it, and read the title "First and last love(song) by me." Yeonjun felt a pang on his chest, not the good one, but the bad one, the one that give you urge to throw up.

He played the video, then he heard the younger's voice. It wasn't as bright as it used to be when they were singing together.

One thing about Beomgyu is that, he may stutter when he is talking, but when he is singing he is singing, he don't stutter at all. And his voice is really beautiful and deep.

His voice can make people feel all kind of emotion. And as Yeonjun was listening, he could felt the pain and the sadness in Beomgyu's voice.

After that he snapped out of his thoughts and replayed the video to focus on the lyrics and  Beomgyu's voice. But as he was listening to the lyrics he couldn't help but cry his heart out.

Lyrics (by me)

I was lovely but the you came along.
You brighten up my dark and lonely world.
Soon enough you became the reason of my happiness and sadness,
You made me know what it's like to be alive
And to feel that bittersweet feeling called love.

Thank you for being my first, last and only love.
You were the melody I heard every morning
And the last note I hear every night.
Even if we had different kind of love for each other,
But I still felt special whenever we were together.
I may be gone now, but my love for you is undying.

First and last lovesong of my heart.

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Yeonjun couldn't believed his hears, and he cried even more when Beomgyu showed his face.

He still looked as beautiful as always, but he was thiner, paler and practically looked lifeless.

He snapped out of his crying mess when he heard the youger talked " Well hi everyone. This is the second time I show my face on my videos, sorry for my appearance it's just that I have a cancer, and I am surely dead right now, I have a cancer so...yeah. I wanted to say goodbye, and to thank those who were kind to me. And to those who weren't, thank you for letting me know how bad I am at that. Bye bye everyone."

The older couldn't believe his ears, his baby bear had a cancer and he didn't even knew about that. Yes he noticed that the younger wasn't alright, but he didn't even thought about that.

Then he started to deny it all, he still thought that maybe he was still alive and he decided to check his dorm. On his way out he saw something white on his floor and he picked it up.

He instantly recognized whose handwriting it was. He quickly opened the envelope and stated to read the letter.

It says...

Hi Yeonjunie hyung. It's me Beomgyu.
How are you doing? I hope that you are doing great. I would like to thank you for being my sunshine all those years. Thanks to you, I knew how it was like to have a friend, to be in love and to feel the awful pain of being heart broken.

If you see this it's that I am already dead. I had a brain tumor and today was my last day on earth, so instead of spending it at the hospital, I decided to pay a visit to our oak three. I am probably gone peacefully so don't feel bad about anything. I am happy that you seems to be happy with your girlfriend, even if it hurts and it breaks my heart into million of pieces, but I am happy to know that you are and will be happy without me and I know that I don't deserve someone like you.

So please hyung keep on smiling and get over my death soon. I know that you can and you will do it.

Thank you hyung, and I love you.

Beomgyu-

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Yeonjun fell to his knees and cried even more. He couldn't believed that the younger liked him back, and that he lose him by trying to save him.

The pain he felt at that moment was so unbearable. He was desperate, he felt guilty, angry, sad and heart broken. But he still wanted to see the younger. So he looked for the hospital he was admitted to and rushed there.

When he got there, he rushed inside and asked for Beomgyu. Then the nurse asked him what was his relationship with the younger, and as he was going to reply. Beomgyu's parents suddenly showed up.

They asked for him, and told the nurse that they were his parents and that Yeonjun was like a family member. So she took them to the younger.

His parents decided to go first and say their goodbye to their son. So Yeonjun just sat there, with tears rolling down his cheeks. And his heart hurted soo much that it felt like someone was stabbing it with millions of needles.

He wanted to see the younger again, and at least tell him how he felt about him. And why acted like this the past three months.

He felt like a fool for not fighting for his love, and just choose the safe option, yes he was protecting the younger. But now his worst fear happened.

He was praying God to take him instead of Beomgyu, because he couldn't live in a world were Beomgyu isn't there with him. And the younger deserved to live because he was the kindest soul alive and was full of love and energy.

He couldn't help but cry even more, he lost the love of his life, his bestfriend and his everything. He wished that he could come back to when that Yeji came in his life, to man up and defend his love.

But sadly he couldn't. So he was left here, with his regrets, guilt, sadness and pain.

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Surprise besties.🤭🤭

How are you guys doing (again)? Ik that it's probably not a surprise for some of you guys but still.

Did you liked it? I spent soo many time to come up with the lyrics of the song, but I am not quite satisfied with it, so I may do some modifications. But if you guys don't want me to change it then I won't. So please lmk.

Thank you guys for your love and support.

I love you guys. See y'all next chapter, bye bye 👋😘

(Didn't proofread, will do it later so sorry for my mistakes.)