Forever Fading

Flashback to when she was six

I watched in silence as my mum and dad fought like usual then I watched as my mom slapped him calling him lots of names. I watched as he turned red as an apple then he returned the slap I ran away to my room slamming the door hard as I could as tears slid down my cheeks.  I’m so weak I’m so softhearted I think as I cry why can’t I be strong I cry all the time every time they get into a fight which is usually every day. I watched as my dad came in the room slamming the door I peered up at him oh no what have I done wrong this time I watched as he raised his fist then he pounded it into my ribs I heard a crack I knew he had broken one then he picked me up carried me towards the car mom was in as he buckled me up in the back I watched as he got in still mad as an angry bull.  I watched as him and mom got into another fight in the car I knew it was dangerous but I knew better than to say anything I watched as he started speeding I knew it by the wind whipping my hair around trying to hurt my eyes. I closed them and when I opened them we were headed straight towards a train that was really long still going super-fast I knew that we were going to crash I knew it I watched as my mother screamed at him to look at the road but it was too late I watched as both my parents abandoned me and the car. I watched as it got closer and closer I watched as the windshield glass was shattering then the seats bending and breaking the last thing I heard was the bapump of my heart.  I also saw some of my bones break before my eyes. Then it was all black.

Flash back over back to the present she is 16 now

I woke up crying because of my flashback slash dream have them every night. I wish that I could forget but I know I can’t so there’s no use trying opps sorry I forgot my manners didn’t I ? well my name is Rain Chase. Well I am a were wolf that day long ago I had my first change not by choice of course I didn’t get the chance to have accustoms made to me by aging to be 18 it was either die or shift and my wolf took complete control I still have problems keeping her under control when I lose my temper but it’s okay I understand when I need to get out and any way I don’t stay in one place long enough to make friends or even get noticed by cops because I know my mom and dad are still trying to find me.  I run all night sleep all day that’s my routine.  I also always keep myself guarded with my wolf she sleeps when we run or tries to anyhow back to what I was telling you I also got some special powers when I changed that’s how I can still smell or use all my other senses except my eyes I cannot use them no matter what I will always be blind nothing can stop that I am also scared of finding my mate I know about the bond everything my wolf explained everything to me after I regained control which took years might I add.  I am also a rogue. I have always been since I ran off after I shifted.  I am now very happy to see that I am okay.  I will always be scared of finding my mate because he could be like my parents and beat the crud out of me.  (an: I will never use cuss words in my books so sorry if you wanted something like that go get a different book)  Both of my parents did when I was little and I don’t want anyone to do that to my daughter or son. So that’s just how it’s gonna be I’m not gonna find him. I was up and running like usual. That’s when I smelled something I heard a crack of a leaf or stick break. It always reminded me of glass shattering when I heard that. I sniffed about four wolves shifted.  Yep most definitely got to run fast as I can at full speed I let my wolf take over instantly since she could still see. Yep I knew it they were huge they were shifters like me I’m probably on their territory. Oh well I was gonna do it sometime that’s when one of them went behind a tree and shifted.  He came back he was really super-duper hot. I mean hot as a stove turned full blast.  I watched his 8 pack sort of haunt me in its wicked glory. I then looked at his hair nice was what I thought immediately blondish with brown streaks.  I watched as he was pack linked with the others I could tell by their expressions. I then watched as he said in a beta command voice “State your business for being here rogue”!  I watched as he said in the same voice “shift” ! I then narrowed my eyes I shook my head no back and forth over and over. I then watched as everyone around me took a step forward I was trapped not. I watched as one tackled me I just shrugged him off. They all looked confused to my actions I then looked around I was getting a headache that ment soon I wouldn’t be able to see anything. I stood as tall as my body was able then started walking away or practically running I heard their paws pounding after me I looked behind me and saw them on my tail then I took off fast as my body could carry me it was pretty fast I then watched as I was tackled then I lost it awwwwwwww man I thought to my wolf I know right she whispered back then I felt tingles where ever the dude was on me nnnooo my eyes closed man oh man I wish we hadn’t found him I got to get out of here my wolf agreed with me I shook him off. Then started running only using my senses that were still usable to get away then I made it almost it was tackled by two man man man shoot I thought we had got away. My wolf said I felt as my eyes started to glow red yep I was mad as a firecracker.  They were talking in their mind link I could tell by the breathing and reactions of their breathing I then took it upon myself to get up I felt as they grew amazed at me.  I knew they weren’t going to let me go. So I let my mind open and I attacked the beta mind I need to go let me go I got to get out of here they’ll catch noo I don’t want to go back they really mean I’m nice see I let y’all live so let me go I was only passing through I need to go I got to I got to see it to believe it I got to go leave me be I can’t even see so let me go.  Please im begging dude please I know your beta and all please I will never come back through again if you let me go then all of a sudden I felt it the usual hand that glowed it was glowing. Shoot I screamed in my mind. Except he heard what is going on with you what’s that what’s wrong with you that’s when i knew that they were distracted so I got up and ran as almost there when he caught me again shhhooot im gonna kill him said my wolf no wolfy don’t  lets get out of here then I whispered in his mind get me clothes and I will shift my wolf didn’t like that to much but what were we to do I then tried smelling what was around then I felt two arms shift around me trying to get more comfortable I guess it was working for me  I then realized it was my mate shoot why cant things go our way for once I asked my wolf.  That’s when I heard the usual brain crashing screams from my mother and father I stood so instantly that I scared the dude that was holding me tears were streaming down my cheeks I could feel them I knew they were they I couldn’t stop them though I heard my mother say you were supposed to get her out of that car you idiot my wolf started whining and whimpering then he grabbed me making me face him I couldn’t thought I backed up my back was against the tree.  Then I started having another flashback of when I was little.  My father was standing there with a beer bottle in his hands. He started swinging the thing it hit me square across the jaw. I felt it slice it then he started beating me while I was against that tree scared as if death was coming he said that it was my fault that my mom hated him that I killed my brother, When I was born. I watched as he started taking the cigar that had been in his mouth to burn those words in my stomach. I felt it start to bleed and welt up but If I started crying he would beat me then mom would beat me. Then I felt something shift around me I was back to where I was a while ago but the scene had changed my mother and father were standing there sniffing at me but I looked away to another direction then I stood to fast for everyone but they still didn’t realize my plans my wolf was taking control again I looked around to take in the scene with eyeballs then I looked at my mom and dad they looked exactly the same but older then looked again then I saw the beta with the clothes come towards me I looked at the clothes picked them up trotted towards the woods they didn’t realize they wouldn’t see me ever again I looked back at my mate sorry dude I really am.  I then walked in the woods. I dropped the clothes instantly and was running towards the border as fast as I could I was over it before I slowed down any but I didn’t slow down enough so I was still at a very fast pace I was getting so far away from that territory even if it took days. I finally made it all the way to California no packs here freedom to run and do as I wish. Yay me and my wolf screamed.  I then heard something it was so close I jumped back really fast and was listening and sniffing really hard I could tell it was a shifter of some kind but didn’t know what when I heard it take a step forward I took one back. It then tackled me making me fall and then try to get up.