The Love They Never Had: The Chase

Chapter 189: State of Oblivion 1 (Mang-Gag-Ui-Sangtae)

"You bitch! You useless bitch! What have you done! Tell me! It was your idea to kidnap Seo Yeon and bring her to the brothel with the worst reputation! And now look at what you have done! She outsmarted the brothel! The earned this most in history without doing anything, just like god-damned mother! She managed to clip my wings, just like she intended to! Even her only friend was supposed to be sold off in submission, but what now? She has married Seo Hwi, the only man in his circle that I cannot touch! He came here in the palace, he asked my husband for permission to marry, he told her about her background and it was her who informed him about his sister being taken to a place like that! And now he will not talk to me, at all! The Attendant Services came to ask him to select a tag name for tonight, and his servant actually had the nerve...the sheer nerve to say that I openly complain about such a trivial matter to embarrass him! He got so angry that he actually chose to sleep with a maid tonight! A lowly maid! The same maid that I beat the other day! He asked her to serve him out of pure spite to me! How could he do that to me! How could he hurt me all over again after he promised me that he wouldn't again...she was even given presents and her own side hall...he wants to infuriate me! That is all he does when he comes home! He just finds new ways to torture me and tell me that I am no worse than a lowly servant!"

"Your Highness! Please do not think like that! He is a Prince and is entitled to have anyone that he wants to...." "How else am I supposed to think then! Go on! Tell me since you have all of the answers! In the past, whenever he gets angry, I was the one who was always by his side! Now he has these lowly girls aiding him...what else does he need to replace me with! A baby!"

I really couldn't help but to wince at that last sentence as the Princess Consort grabbed the nearest object that she could find and started beating me with it, bruising my shoulders and my head. But I dare not complain, as i should have known what I was getting self into when I chose to collaborate with one of the most powerful women in the Royal Family who was infamous for her jealousy of any woman who approached her husband. All I could care about was protecting my baby bump that I was having rather a difficult time hiding and disguising under my robes. I was beginning to bleed at my forehead whee she kept hitting me, but that wasn't the most painful thing that I went through today. Seo Hwi was married? To a damned kisaeng? He actually eloped with her and...and he left her sheet of virgin blood to prove that they were already man and wife before anyone could even try and tear them apart. But why? Why do that with a woman that he barely knew when he knew...he knew how long I had waited for him to return to me. Every single day away from him crippled me to the point where i had lost my sanity, my intelligence and wit, my beauty and even my will to live. I wouldn't have even dreamed to get close to his best friend if he hadn't of lied and hid from me just to save him damned sister. His sister and his so-called best friend, the pair of them...
But the twisted pain of my abdomen had slowly brought me back to reality, Nam Seon-Ho was infatuated with Yeon and no longer wanted anything to do with me. Seo Hwi was now married whilst I was pregnant with a baby that viscously fought me back every single time i tried to hide him by giving me pains and severe nausea in the mornings and i had even lost my friendship with Hwa-Wol because of my new found amusive madness and paranoia that almost let me kill her husband the father of her daughter Bo-Geom...no wonder she hated me so much now. I almost gave her daughter the same fate as us girls...best friends without a father in her life, Hwa-Wol couldn't have supported her on her own without Moob-Bok and...where else was she supposed to have had an income without taking her daughter and herself back to another brothel to sell themselves...

"The maid is just jealous of you, Your Highness, they all are. Getting angry on such a hot day will harm Your Majesty's health..." "Quickly! Servants! Report to the Third Prince that i am feeling unwell and i require urgent assistance! I need to stall him from his investigation of my brothel that he knew nothing about! Bodies...charcoal bodies...I see them everywhere...every single women my husband has chased, wooed to been with even yers before our marriage! They will all tell him what i have done and expose me for my crimes....I could loose my position as Princess Consort over this..."
"...she should call for a doctor if she is sick! I can't cure her myself! I am Royal Prince, not a physician! Who the hell does that deluded woman think that I am! Well! Don't just stand there gawking at me! Relay my message to her at once!" "Your Highness! You have fallen down...quickly! Someone! Anyone! Help me to assist your mistress...!" "Your Highness! Please calm down, lest someone hear us! Her most of all..." "You do not understand mistress, i am tried of her delusional paranoia, her jealousy and her endless chatter!" "Your Majesty need not see her if it displeases you. She is a Princess Consort with many duties on her hands anyway to distract her from us although...you justifying this to me makes it seem that I am the reason why you are avoiding your wife..." I could not believe the Third Prince had the balls to flirt so openly to a amid right outside of his legal wife's doors to her qauters, it almost made me pity her in a way that i haven't felt for a long time. The Princess Consort had committed many terrible sins, but at the end of the day, it was all for the love that she had for her husband. Love, who in this life could be protected by love's tenderness or brutality? He was practically stoning her heart to death with every single word he spoke to another woman, he was burning her when he had his eyes on somebody else and he was spilling blood himself everytime he took a new woman to his bed...

"Of course it is because of you; if only you were a bit stupider, uglier and less sensible like my wife is, then I might have been able to put up with her more." "One can have affection for the newly-favoured and the long-beloved, why is your heart so one-sided? Who doesn't know that your wife is wilful by nature, but even she wouldn't claim to be sick just for attention..." "Who said that His Majesty wouldn't come to see me! It must be because of you bitches! My own maids to dare to betray me every single day since the day of my coronation! You bitches must be currying favour with my husband's mistresses to undermine my status!" This woman was mad, she surely must be. She was possessed with such impassioned fury every time her husband was with someone else, it really was no wonder that he wanted nothing to do with her at all...just as Seo Hwi and Seon-Ho wanted nothing to do with me either, absolutely nothing at all...
She threw a teacup across the room in rage before i knew it and it almost landed right on her husband's face, who seemed to have a change of heart and wanted to see her after all. And the look on her face after what she realised what she had done was priceless; the colour from her face literally drained before my very eyes and she almost fell back in shock.
"How dare you! His Royal Highness is here!" "Your Royal Highness! Be careful! she almost got you right in the face..." "P-peace be to...to Your Highness...please....forgive me..." "Didn't you say that you were sick! But you seem better than ever to me!" "Forgive me! I was just....disciplining some servants...i truly am sick however..." "Then why are you beating your maids instead of resting! Or do you even need me to hold your hand and walk you through the concept of being ill? Just like my mother was! and you sit here and feign illness after everything that she has been through....how ill could you possibly be wife, when you are already there! How dare you do this!" "Husband! Please forgive me! i made a mistake...I completely forgot about your mother...."

"And who is this maid? Is she new? What on earth did she do to deserve a beating? Have you lost your damned mind, woman!" "I am her master and she defied me! I simply got infuriated with her and i hit her, she deserved it!" "Good Lord, she isn;' even a damned maid here! Isn't she the kisaeng from the Ihwaru brothel? I cannot believe this, my wife has well and truly lost her mind like I always said she did..." "Your Highness; as a former maid of the Princess Consort, I can finally tell you what is going on. The Princess Consort beats up this kisaneg who was sent to your service years ago, most likely because you refused to visit her when she asked you to. She wasn't even the one who was sent to you and she is taking her anger out on somebody else like the mad woman that she truly is..." "ENOUGH! STOP CALLING ME MAD! I AM NOT MAD! I AM YOUR SUPERIOR AND YOU WILL TREAT ME THUS!"
"Treat you! With what? Respect? When you are beating a woman I have used and abused many years ago!" You truly have gone crazy i am afraid..." "Husband! Stop calling me mad! You know how I feel about it..." "And you know how i feel about people feigning illnesses, but you seem to have no problem forgetting that, don't you! What a damned hypocrite, just like my father...."

"Your Highness, she often vents her anger out on that woman whenever she is upset for a couple of years now, maybe 5? She calls her into the palace especially to beat her when she cannot find other ways to express herself...." "How dare you slander me! You ought to be grateful that I do not pull out your tongue this very instant!" "Your Highness! Did you hear that? Did you hear what she wants to do to me!" "Princess Consort beating an innocent girl, you have no human compassion at all. Your set madness is offensive against your superior and you pose to be a danger to all when i refuse your random yet consistent threats of illnesses and whatever else you use as an excuse to want to see me! Due to your resentment against your own husband!"

"Your Majesty! Please forgive me!" "Your Highness! Look at all of these maids wounds that she incudes whenever she is simply displeased! I am begging you, please take a look! Not even a single inch of their flesh has been spared! And I have been powerless to save them all, until now. She constantly uses her rank to press all of us every single minute of every day! I cannot even protect my own sisters!" "Her rank? She hasn't deserved t be my legally married wife for years now. She had no respect for anyone and even less common sense; I shall demote her to the side quarters and is confined to her room until i feel it appropriate to see her again." "Your Majesty! No! Please do not abandon me! Do not leave me!" "Han Hui-Jae? You are free to leave this place and i do not wish to see you near my wife again, for your own sake and well-being." "Thank you for your eternal mercy, Your Highness..."