Love is just not...

Well how do I start, my life is normal, I try to defy that if it even is normal. So I will start with me, my name is Amber Sky Bennett. I know its not like I had a choice! I am the only child my parents could ever had. Which is ok I guess and a part of me kinda wished that not. I'm 4'11 yes very short I know blame it on genetic. I do wish I was at least 5'3. I have long medium brown hair that reaches to my lower back and it thin but I got lots of it. I'm light skin and I get a bit color like an airbrush tan and it goes away in like about a week. Down to earth kinda girl and try to make the best out of life even if it hard to see the silver lining sometimes . Have an attitude when provoked only and at the end I am only human. I turned 19 about 3 months ago and so far so good. Financially I am great thanks to my parents hard work and I am great full for them. They did a well good job on raising me and no I am not a spoiled brat. my bf Stephanie and I work as a saloon part time to get some work ethic for our resume. Stuff like that to help in the future. But we are going to give our 2 weeks notice so can concentrate on our degree.

not much of a drinker and I am glad I am not like most girls. So don't be hating, I don't go by what "society" thinks a girl should be by their lifestyle. I do got my reason why I don trust very easily and you will find out why. Since I took inter mediate classes in high school I am almost done with college yay! I really love working and doing things for people and I am glad I am able to give to those in need and my contribution. I love life and what it has to offer well sometime like I have told my friends I am not perfect! I think to much on things and my friend tells me to just do and think later. But I can't; you have to think to find solutions to problems and to find answers to the questions. yep I am that type of person I think. Still trying to get the hang of so called life and I just got to take on thing at a time. Enough about me let get into this crazy thing on love and see where this goes to...it all started in...

Ch.1

September 2010

I love the quietness of this place, small town where everyone almost knows everyone. People around here are very friendly and I have only been living here at least 3 years. We lived in the city but we all got tired of it and moved here to Marshall, Michigan. The house is pretty big my dad had it made before we move in, guess he has been thinking on move out of there for a while. My parents still go to the city for the work and I miss them but they always find time to spend as a family when work tries to take over. My father is a lawyer and my mother is an accountant for the his company. So glad that they work together at least and that helps keep there marriage in check. I could see the love just radiating from one to the other. Aww I'm such a sucker for that kind of stuff and brings me into reality that it not always like that for me. When I was 13 I met Mark Steed and Taylor Evans and we all got along and became very great friends. We would all hang at my house and see movies, play games, and eat dinner or lunch depends on the day. My dad on the other hand gave the "talk and consequences" speech. Where was the opening of the ground to swallow me whole. The guys were ok about it and explained that not so many girls have parents like me and respect where I come from. We started High school and we are excited about it. Welcome to becoming closer to adult hood!  We had our schedules and were ready for this school year; at least I hope I am. So a year later, we are no longer "fishes" and now we are sophomores yay but now they call you "s'mores" can't catch a break. But we are all doing good as is well for us. A week in school and this happens..

We went on like this until Taylor got himself a girl and we would hang out and it got a bit weird and he started to pull away from us and we gave him his space. We got to hang together time to time. Eventually Mark and me got closer and that had me nervous because we are to be friends and nothing else. One day I was walking to my locker when I felt someone behind me and as I turned to see who it was " Mark.. you scared the air out of me", I gasped for air. He was to close and that really got me by surprise. " Sorry, Amber I know that your birthday is just around the corner and I wanted to give you this..." he says pulling a box of jewelry. As he opens it a beautiful bracelet with white diamonds and blue sapphire in oval shapes. I was wordless at the moment and I felt so out of place." Amber say something, please don't just stand there..." he asks. " Mark I don't know what to say or... to think at the moment," I said. "Well I will leave it with you and let you think about it." I could see the tension on his jaw line and gave me a kiss on the cheek and walked away. I stood there like a dummy head and took me a minute to collect things and process what just happened. I close the locker and left home and went straight to my room and place the box next to my dresser and looked at it for a pretty long time. My cell vibrated and I checked the caller and it was mom," Hi, mom," I answered. "Hey sweetheart I'm calling because we wont be able to make home tonight, will you be alright by yourself?" I sigh and I said" yes mom with the security that we have I feel safe but can I have Taylor come over?" I asked. " Yes, honey we trust you both" she replied. "Thank you mom see you tomorrow, I love you both," I told her and we both hang up and I text Taylor to come over if he can. He didn't replied and I felt so alone for the first time in my life. So I took a shower instead and it felt good. As I finished I check myself in the mirror and examined myself, we all do that time to time. I realized that I was looking like a grown up and I had my curves and that helped my spirits up a little bit. I had a decent "rack" like the guys call them and a nice round bottom all that thanks to working out. I noticed my breast were growing because my bras weren't fitting on me very well and I was already a 38b. I really don't want to be huge either and hear girls like that had a lot of back problems. As I walked out of the bathroom and walked to my bed room I saw my cell flashing I had a text and it was from Taylor saying that he was on his way like 20 minutes ago. So as soon as I put down the cell and pull down my towel to got to my closet. So in a hurry to find something quick because he should be here by now. He might be waiting for me outside for me. I heard my door open," Amber are you.." and we both were so in shocked that we actually stood there for a bit and he looked at me from head to toes. He looked into my eyes and I stood there frozen in fear. He looked down and walked towards the towel and covered me and walked out of my room. From behind the door he says," Um.. let me know when I can come in". I quickly went to my closet and got pajamas and went to my dresser and got my under clothes and changed. As soon I did I looked myself in the mirror and relaxed or at least tried to and I was still shaken. I took a deep breath and I opened the door. we looked at each other and talk about awkward moment. I cleared my throat," come in." I left the door open and I walked to by bed and he soon followed behind me and he closes the door. He stays there and looks around my room and tires to avoid looking at me. " So...I... umm", was all that came out of him. "Taylor, it was an accident... lets just forget it happened ok." I tired to keep my voice strong and calm. He looks at me and smiles. " I can try but it wont be easy.." My eyes went wide open," SHUT UP TY", I said as I threw him a pillow. We both end up laughing how embarrassing. When we became quite once again he walks and sits next to me on the bed with some space in between us." I'm sorry for walking in on you ... but when you didn't text me back or answer the door I panic and when I didn't see none of you parents car... I just walked in and searched in for you." I could see the how scared he was at the moment." Now I know why you didn't answer me back.." he said looking at me." Sorry Ty I left my cell on the bed and when I read the text I was in a hurry to put on something that I didn't hear you inside the house," sigh my cheek still blushing.