The Vampire Diaries X Reader

Scared - Poly! Mikaelsons x Reader

Warnings: talks of eating disorders

You had been with the Mikaelson family for quite some time before they changed you. You loved each one of them individually and wholly. You were prepared for what vampirism would bring and you were ready. You knew what to expect and what would happen. The one thing you were most excited about, not eating food anymore. Of course, they didn't know that, you didn't plan on letting them know that. They knew of some different things with you while you were human. Like how you avoided eating with them or avoided going shopping for clothes with Rebekah. You always had an excuse for eating dinner with them, you just couldn't do it. You knew that you should tell them, you trusted them enough. You knew how your emotions may throw things out of whack when you changed, how you might end up feeling worse about yourself. You also knew how changing would help, you wouldn't have to worry about food anymore. You wouldn't have to stress about eating things you don't want to or forcing yourself to eat something because it had been a full 24 hours since you ate. You had a feeling they may have caught on since you'd be with them and your tummy would growl and they would hear it and ask if you're hungry only for you to reply with no. When you were officially turned you were ecstatic, you got to eternally be with your best friends and lovers. Not to mention never having to suffer at the hands of food ever again.

It had been a few months now, you loved to go hunt with Kol. He was bloodthirsty and didn't comment on how you only wanted blood. Everyone else though wasn't as easy, they would have dinner catered and you'd avoid it. They would have stuff that you liked and you still avoided it. Even food you felt was safe at one point, still, you wanted no part in it. Food still had its claws sunk into you deep. When Elijah, Klaus, and Rebekah started to bring it up and try and force you into sitting with them at least you had an outburst.

"Please, at least sit with us," Elijah begged.

"No, I'm good. Kol and I are gonna go out soon anyways."

"It will only be a little bit. You have time."

"I said no Nik."

"We just want you to sit with us like a family," Rebekah said.

"We are a family. I just don't want to sit and eat with you guys."

"What's so important about going out with Kol, huh? Why do you have to go out every day with him to hunt? What's your deal with blood?" Klaus said angrily.

"I'm a vampire. I want blood. Kol lets me have it."

"Do you love him more than us?" Elijah said softly.

"No, I love all of you guys the same."

"Then why do you have to go out every day to drink with him."

"Because he lets me drink as much as I want and I have to get my cravings under control."

"Then eat with us," Klaus joined in.

"No."

"Why not?!" Klaus yelled; he was getting impatient.

"Because it's scary. I don't want it. Kol is the only one who doesn't talk about it."

"Scary?" Elijah asks.

"Are you scared to eat?" Rebekah asked.

"Food is scary. When I turned, I was so happy that I wouldn't ever have to eat food ever again. There you happy." You turned and walked off you didn't even want to go out with Kol anymore. You went to your room and closed the door, locking it would be useless and a waste of a good door. If they wanted in, they would get in. You lay on your bed and just thought about how you just spilled your guts to the people you love.

"Is she ready yet or what? I'm ready to go."

"I don't think she's going anymore," Elijah said to Kol.

"And why not?"

"We made her angry and upset," Klaus said as he rounded the corner.

"What did you guys do?"

"She said she was scared to eat," Rebekah said.

"Well obviously. You guys didn't catch on. It's been this way for years. I figured she'd tell us when she was ready."

"Well, what did you want us to do," Klaus said seething that Kol knew and didn't tell anyone.

"Leave it be for the time. It's her secret. She would tell us when she was ready."

"We should go talk to her," Rebekah said as she started to ascend the stairs.

You heard three knocks at your door.

"Hey, it's Rebekah. Can I come in?"

"Ugh. Yeah, come in."

She walked in and shut the door behind her, "I'm sorry about earlier. She shouldn't have pried. We knew that you being just on blood wasn't like you. We just didn't know why. We care about you. We love you and we didn't want to lose you. We were scared that something was wrong. No one blames you for just sticking to blood. Kol does but he's Kol. Most people do still eat food to hold off cravings. We figured Kol might be influencing you."

You laughed a couple of times during her speech to you, you understood that they were worried. You just didn't think it would happen this way.

"Rebekah, I didn't want to hurt you guys. I knew I was scared and I knew that when I changed, I couldn't wait for never having to eat food. When I was first diagnosed with an eating disorder, I had known about it for a while. I knew that I hated eating and that I aimed to avoid it. Eating was scary, it was like anytime I ate I wanted to throw it up. I had trouble with putting food in my mouth, I just couldn't do it. I had a lot of trouble with people watching me eat or being near people while they ate or I did. Every aspect is scary and I hated it. I found that I was safer not eating. I knew it was dangerous and that it was killing me. I just couldn't find the willpower to care."

Rebekah hugged you; she understood what you said to her. She loved you, she wanted to help you.

The door opened again; it was the boys. Elijah's eyes were glossy like he was going to cry. He picked you up and hugged you, "I don't want you to ever have to deal with that again."

"That's not exactly how it works."

"We will help you," Klaus said as he took you into his arms.

"I want to be better. It could take years though."

"We just so happen to have forever," Kol said.