Venus & Mars - ZARRY [ENG VERSION]

DECISION TO LEAVE

| CHAPTER XXVI |

I will be leaving soon and I would like to leave my last words recorded in this letter. I can barely imagine what a great man you'd become, Zayn. When I look at you, all I can think of is what you're going to accomplish someday. Everything I've done in my life, or much of it, has been with you in my mind. All the work, the empire built by your grandfather and that today is mine and one day will be yours. And when that day comes, I ask you to take care of all that we have built with great care. I hope that one day you can have children, if that is your wish, perhaps a beautiful family, carrying on everything that your grandfather and I have achieved during all these years. The company will be yours as soon as your father won't be able to take care of it for me. And when it's in your hands, take care and carry on our legacy, do this for your mother, it's my last request. Do well, my son. I love you forever.

I've finished reading this letter five times since I left my father's house without talking to him about it. It was so hard to believe, I wasn't ready for that letter. I felt so confident about what I wanted for my future back then. What am I going to do next?

There was a division inside my brain. On the one hand, I had the option of quitting my job and ignoring my mother's wishes. I could put the business in the hands of any other business person interested in owning it. But I would run the risk of seeing everything fall apart. But I would have the chance to finally leave London, to find a new home with the person I was in love with. It would be extremely risky to change my life in this way, it could end up hurting Harry since my father didn't seem to want to support him when it came to Mr. Bower's threats. What if he doesn't want to be with me any more because of that? What if I can't live with myself? There were so many doubts in trying to spoil everything.

On the other hand, I could accept the destiny that my own mother had marked out for me when I was still a child, and I could live without the weight of conscience that I was being a bad son. But I could barely find complete happiness in being comfortable with my job, my home and my family. Taking Louis away from me would not be easy because he now had much of what I also have. Firing him and Mr. Bower at the same time would be out of the question for a few years of a signed contract. I certainly would no longer accept him as a husband, even if we were to remain married for the sake of the company. I think about how Harry would feel if we just happened to be able to stay together but not be able to live in a real relationship that doesn't seem extremely forbidden. It would be uncomfortable in some way, him in Italy and me in London.

Well, that was a very difficult decision.

I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket, so I pulled it out to see who was calling. It was Harry.

"Hey, I'm sorry. I forgot to call when I got here. I was in my dad's house." I said.

"What were you doing there?" he asked, as I was going back to the kitchen to another can of beer.