My Thoughts.

Tye Evan Clark.

    Story time! Now in 8th grade, there was this boy. He wasn't all that nice to me, but for some odd reason he decided he was gonna date me. To this day I still don't know if it was supposed to be a joke, a dare, or whatever. Anyways we started off really acward, like any couple. Not only did we just first dating, I dated his brother..
    Yeah you probably think that's bad or whatever but you haven't heard the rest of my story. So my parents hated him, and his mom hated me. It didn't stay that way! Me and him started hanging out more outside of school and my parents learned to love him, and same with his mom with me. We were so close. Then, we started fighting more.
     I don't know why we were fighting so much, but it was bad. Then it got better and I found out he was going to rock springs for the Summer and that kinda crush me. Not only because I wouldn't get to see him for 3 months but it was our first summer together. But I pretended to be happy for him that way we didn't fight about it. But right before he went to Rock springs, we broke up...
    We didn't want to but our parents thought it would be a good idea for us because me fight so much. I fell apart, like worst then when my parents were split up for a little bit. I couldn't face him at school, nothing. I cryed for like 4 or 5 days straight. Then I thought well I'm gonna put a note on his locker so he will come and talk to me. He did, and I hadn't cried all day.. Till he came a talked to me..-_-
   We talked it out and what not, and then when he went to Rock springs I thought I had just died. I still hung out with his mom and I still talk to him, but I felt so far away. He would always tell me "I will be back, and then they can't stop us." I believed him too. Then his mom needed me, needed me to go to Rock springs with her. All of a sudden I felt like I was gonna scream and puke at the same time.
    I was so happy that I was gonna be able to see him. We went to rock springs and I saw him. It looked like he was so happy to see me and it made me feel like I was one in a million. We hung out for like two days straight and then we went to his dads so his mom could go out and get drunk. Well we ate dinner, then we went down stairs to his room to play video games. We were playing video games and it very quickly turned in to making out and stuff. Then we did it.
    You probably thinking "what the hell, I don't need to know that." But that's how it happened, and not to long after that his dad came dad made sure we were okay. But after he left all we could do was laugh. We came back home with me early, and our parents let us get back together. I felt like nothing could go wrong again as long as we didn't fight. Well I was wrong on that..
    We fought so god dame much to was just awful. Then that really bad day came. I never thought it would end the way it did, but it did. And so this is how it ended, me and him didn't talk for a couple days so I decided to go over there. Him and his mom were fighting, it just seemed like normal at first but it turned into one of there really big, really bad fights.
     He was punching everything and just screaming at her, I was trying to calm him down but it wasn't working. She finally decided she was done.. And sent him to Rock springs to live with his dad. That feeling was worst then when me and him first broke up. That day I remember him telling me that he loved me and for me to stay strong no matter what because he was always gonna be there..
    After he left I was a hot mess I was cutting every time I got a chance and that was a lot more often then needed. I was drinking and smoking weed, which I had been trying to stay clean of. But it was like life just kinda didn't matter anymore. I ended up killing myself. But me and him talked about everything he was mad because for like a whole month I didn't say one word to him like I hated him.
     But I love him, still do! But now me and him are really close friends and he lives in texas, but as soon as he gets back... I don't know what I'm gonna do. Just gotta stay strong I guess.