I Need Love

Prologue

"Marina, everybody's going to miss you so much", Regina said, sniffling and holding back tears. Tonight was my last night in New York. I was moving across the country, trying to start my adult life. I thought the best way to kick some responsibility into myself was by applying for a graduate program across the country and moving, therefore having to be completely independent. Of course that meant leaving my best friend of ten years behind. When I got my acceptance letter in the mail, though I was happy, my heart was heavy because I knew I'd have to explain to my best friend that I'd be leaving New York. Of course, Regina will come and visit me eventually and I'll come back to New York occasionally. But for now, I was venturing off into the unknown. 

"'I'll miss you too', I laughed purposefully messing up Regina's blonde hair, handing her a tissue to fix her smudged eye makeup. 'You know I have to do this though...right?'",  the way that sentence came out made me sound a bit unsure of my plans, almost like I needed reassurance that what I was doing was right. 

"Oh, I know why you're doing this and I know you'll be fine...but I definitely think you'll be lonely so far away from home', Regina stopped herself, and looked down at the fuzzy pink carpet in my bedroom, then her eyes trailed the half-packed cardboard boxes and overloaded suitcases filled with clothes that were scattered all over my bedroom. Her dark brown eyes had a glossy type shine, a warning sign that more tears were on the way. 'I just think you're leaving a lot behind..I can't help but worry just a little bit, you're my best friend, ya know, we've watched each other grow. Marina..what about Ben? You're leaving everything up in the air with him?'" 

At the thought of Ben, I felt a pang in my chest. Ah yes, Ben, my first boyfriend. We met in my senior year of High School, I did a volunteer program for a summer camp. Classic camp counselor love story. The problem with Ben started with his inconsistency. One day he would answer every text, the next few weeks, however, I wouldn't hear from him at all. It made me feel as if I wasn't interesting enough for him. And obviously, because we barely saw each other once senior year started and especially when college started, there was no communication. It was all exhausting. So...I broke up with him. He cried, asked if we could work things out, try again, blah blah blah, I said no. As I said, this was a classic story. Later on in my junior year of college, Ben and I reconnected, and honestly, we worked well as friends. What I guess made him think we were moving in the direction of a romantic relationship again was at a party where I had a bit too much to drink and ended up kissing him. I didn't even remember it had happened until he told me about it the next day. Ever since then, it's been awkward. According to Regina, he's been under the impression that we'll be back together any day now. However, that's far from the truth. I would be lying if Ben didn't have something to do with my big move. 

I came back to reality and quickly answered Regina back with a simple, "Who cares about Ben? I don't really talk to him anymore, he doesn't need to know anything.", it came out a bit defensive, which was unintentional. 

"Alright...", Regina said with her eyebrows raised, lightly shaking her head to the left and right in a disapproving way. 

After that, we continued packing, recounting past memories, stupid things we did as kids, and idiotic things we've done as adults. Cried a few more times and then passed out sometime around 2 am. 

Man...I'm gonna miss her.

*A/N- Hi!!! This is my first ever story on Wattpad, I mainly write on Tumblr and have written there for about six years. the algorithm has gotten bad and really only rewards fanfic writers and nothing else. I'm not knocking fanfiction btw, I love a good fanfic, I just feel that non-fanfiction pieces of work would probably gain more appreciation on Wattpad. So let's see what happens over here!

Anyways hope whoever reads this (If anyone reads this at all) enjoys this book, not sure how long it will be. This was a draft on a document for the longest time that was supposed to just be a short story that went nowhere but I want to give these characters a chance. 

As I'm writing this it's almost summer so...hope you're all enjoying the weather lol*