The Hour Glass

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My thought process scares me, my eyes are so open that shutting them is an impossibility, but I'm NOT the person with all the responsibility, I'm just the man who's always faced with improbability which then leads to me being told about all the impossibilities. The faith I have in me is gone fed up with the same song and dance family rely on me when they need me but where are they when I need that chance they just glance tell me how I'll be better just have faith but faith has left me after I was 8 nobody else lending a hand just a you will get it next time as they hold out their hands and demand me to do what I shouldn't do but family is all I got or at least that's what I thought I knew because when y'all need something that's when it's oh that's my cue but when I need something it's like my family has no clue put yourself in my shoes no way to win, no loans to achieve for me, no financial assistance that will help pay for me, either under or over qualified for the things I need, but then it gets denied due to my debt from my seed, imagine that you yourself was down and out but everybody else needs you but you take of them because they are your peoples but you're peoples don't help you because they no longer need you. Imagine asking for help but nobody talks to you directly but expect you to handle their wishes respectfully. Now I'm just like an hour glass watching the sands of time go watching my love, my family and my respect slowly being replace with depression, envy, and regret telling someone you got it works only for so long, I've heard it so much that now that it's like listening to the same old song, it's one thing to build independence and character into a man it's another thing to say you can't when you know already you can I just don't understand the intelligence in it you think keeping me down will help you in winning? well now it's time separate myself from you all the hour glass is now filling and once it's done I don't want nothing from you all, when I asked it was dismissed, when I talked it was questioned, when I was motivated you talked me out of it because you wasn't willing to be invested, now I don't ask for nothing it's the best idea in my head because in the end majority of when I asked for something I got left on read so now be prepared for the creature you created instead being nice it's what put me here, not your request, but the me that believed family needed me here so now I watch as the end of the sands in the hour glass draws near

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