When I'm with You // Ethan Landry

seven.

TW FOR THIS CHAPTER.

Theme of an ED, spiraling, mentioning of killing her self.
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Please do not read this chapter or the next if you have struggled with these things or find these topic uneasy.
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remember to always take care of yourself and put yourself first, never others.

i love you.

5:45 am

NADIA WOKE UP breathing heavily trying to regain her air, she had a nightmare about the night of Anika's death.

She grabbed her phone and checked the time, she has been waking up too early ever since Anika died, earliest being 3:30 am and the latest being around 6:40. It's a constant loop that she can't leave.

She was admitted to this hospital for basically killing herself from the inside out, she felt horrible and thought that she wouldn't make it to her 19th birthday if this is how her life keeps going.

Drowning in her thoughts, tears began to stream down the girls face, she grabbed her phone, the screen blurry but she can tell it's around 5:50 am. Visiting hours start at 6.

She texted Ethan.

Ethan🤍
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idk if you're awake but i need you, please.
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i am destroying myself and i need you Ethan, you are the only thing keeping me here.
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i cant do this anymore, e.
im so fucking miserable,
i just want to be with my sister.
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Sam and Tara have each other, Mindy and Chad, i have no one. Just you, but to be honest i don't want to be here anymore. i miss Anika so fucking much bro. i need her and i can't have that. she was supposed the be my big sister and help me through things. She wasn't supposed to die. No one deserves that. Anika never ever deserved that.
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im sorry,
i love you Ethan. i wish we could've been something more.
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I turned off my phone, my face was puffy and wet. Anika was my rock and i wouldn't be in New York without her. She gave me the motivation to do what i loved and made sure that no one would ruin it for me.

Now that she is gone i have nothing else to loose.

*buzz buzz*

-incoming call; Ethan🤍-

Nadia was hesitant but she needed to talk to someone.

"hey." i could barely get out

"holy fuck, thank god. Nadia listen to me, i'm on my way don't do anything stay in your bed and i will stay on the phone with you till i'm at you room door." Ethan said

"i want Anika, my Anika." i cried

"I know baby, i wish i could undo the past and i would take Anika's spot in a heartbeat so you could have your sister." he said