Harmony's Perfect

Loneliness

Allison looked outside the bus window. She saw the sky. It blue a bright. " Back the either my life nor the sky was bright like this" Allison thought. "I was a pure idiot back then. I always found reasons to blame my life and i was always sad and disappointed with everything i had. I always wanted more. I was pretty greedy back then" she thought.

      Four years back she was always unsatisfied with her life and the way thinks were. She always wanted more.  She never cared about anyone. Till the crisis (incident from the chapter - four years ago).After that her personality mostly changed after her visit to London.
      Back then she was not only disappointed with her life, she also hated being alone even long after her life got better. She was pretty sensitive and always cried for the sillest reason. She never had a friend to share this with. She never had anyone to hug her and tell her that everything will get better. This was always a burden in Allison's life. She hated it when someone is happy with their friends.
      Due to this pain her life was dull and grey. No matter how much she tried to ignore it, the pain never left. She always cried when she came back home. Everytime she remembered this her mood changes. She feels like her head is blasting.
      "Loneliness is not a easy thing. Loneliness can lead anyone to do anything to get of it." She said to herself. That was also true, because of this loneliness she tried to suicide 3 or 4 time . She tried to cut her vein. She tried to jump off the terrace but everytime she failed to kill herself. Just because of this loneliness Allison hated herself. She thought her parents were the reason for this, along with that she thought her cubby body made people hate her, she thought no body liked her smiles because of her teeth.

      She always blamed her body and parents for her pain.  Later,after getting to the fact that her personality was one big factor for this, she stopped blaming everything else. Soon she realised it was not only just her fault, it was the world and the people, apart from few of the problems in her personality, she was a great person, a good friend. It's just that the people around her, weren't just worth enough to feel her love. But later after all this suffering she made a friend on tenth grade who never left her.

            Harmony: just like Allison said, loneliness can force anyone to do anything crazy. I know it's painful to be alone but it's okay you will and you can pass through this darkness. And you will find a true friend. Stay tuned for the next part and remember to vote and share and support.