boy who was toy for cheater

what happend

(hey i'm alec and this is my story, this all true and i want make sure i don't like this guy anymore)

a boy named Alec met another boy who was just a friend at first but then everything changed.

so i was talking with my friend one day and she said there is one server where i can go rp and i was exited.I  go that server and i have lot of fun but then server has new member named cheater (not real name). we welcome him in the server and everything is fine but then he said he is smoking and i ask why he told us that. What he asnwer is fucking something! he asked me what i think of him and i was confused. i told him ,he is cool and i added him in dc. few days go and he chatted me" alec come to me" and i go to him (mistake). what he did starded this all. he kissed me in rp just us. i was so confused and i didin't  know what to do so i kissed back. then he start kissing me more and i didn't know what to do,then he asked me can he fuck me. i was so confused and didn't know what to say so i said yes.

He fucked me when i was 13 and he was 17. he fucked me that much i think i could't walk if that happend in real life. he do what he did and say to me we forgot this okay. i said just yes and i was scared.That same thing happend many many times and i don't know why i didn't stop it.then that happend i fell in love with him and i told him what i feel. he told me he has fucking GIRLFRIEND! i was so so confused, i asked him why he fucked me and didn't tell he that he has girlfriend. he said it is not important! i was mad and sad at the same time. he said i can meet him in real life and i don't fucking know why i said yes.

We meet firts time and we talk about what happend. i think we talk about 1 hour and then he asked do i wanna go his place and i said yes (mistake). we go his place and it was pretty. he asked do i want drink something and i said yes. he come back with 2 bottles vodca and he say lets play game, i argee with him.play was card game, every time someone lose, they have to take  piece of clothing off. he didn't let me win even ones, i was drunk and he was too and i didn't have much on me.so what happend next was that we start kissing then we go his bedroom and i lost  my virginity. he fucked me that fucking much that i all most past out. i was so tired what happend and he do 14 rounds, i was so dead.

so we start doing that many times in week and always when i say i wanna stop he didn't lisen to me. he called me he's slut and toy . i was he's toy and i know it,he didn't mean enything what he sayd to me. i was just only fucking toy! he uses me for he's needs  and i was all most always tired cuz he wanted my body all the time.I was exhausted and ashamed that I was doing this.when i finally got a chance to end things with him, he just pulled me closer and kissed me and said i'll  come to him sooner or later.(i never gona do that)

i hate him so fucking much. that fucking cheater! he make me his toy for fun and i did nothing to it.i'm ashamed that I didn't say back. I hate when i fell in love with him and my body is still partly broken by what he did to me. I hate him and myself because of what happened. no one knows about this except now.  

thank you for reading my story and I feel better now than I was then