I will always love you // Ayamiya

Chapter 7

Ayaka POV:

I waited in the hall outside Yoimiya's room in the hospital. A faint headache lingered in the back of my head, and I feel exhausted. I don't know how long it's been, time sort of became a blur, one on hour bled into the next. I haven't left the same spot that I have been since I got here, since the doctor told us that she may of may not wake up. Thoma and Ayato went home to take a break. But how could I leave? It was my fault. And if she woke up, I could not miss it, I had to tell her, I had to apologize.

She thought I didn't care, I meant that much to her. She always looked so happy, how could she have hidden all this? I always envied how she managed to stay happy through difficult situations, but maybe her emotions were fake just like some of mine.  I can hear someone enter the hallway from the door. 

"Ayaka? You're still here?" I hear my brothers voice. I look over there to see both him and Thoma.  "It's been a day and a half, we haven't seen you back at all, have you been sleeping here." Sleep, how was I supposed to sleep with my friend in the hospital, because of me. 

"No," I answered, technically not lying. "I haven't been sleeping here." 

Thoma began to speak, "We are a little concerned about you, we just wanted to remind you that it's not your fault."

"Why would you say that, you don't know what happened, you weren't there. It is my fault, you don't understand, you don't know anything about her. How can you be so sure about something you know nothing about? I know you are trying to comfort me, but lying to my face won't do a thing," I said, almost yelling. I could feel the tears rolling down my face.

"I don't know nothing about it," he said looking down. 

"Oh really?!?!?! What, what do you know!" I snapped. Thoma looked down at Ayato, who seemed to be upset. He pulled out a small piece of paper from his pocket. 

"On the day of the party I ran into Yoimiya on the beach, and we talked a bit. I found this on the ground, and when I asked her to read it for me, she ran away. So I read it on my own. I- I thought that you wouldn't want to know this and-" I snatched the paper from his hands. He knew, he knew this whole time and never told me. I began to feel more and more angry. 

Before I knew it I had lifted up my hand and swung it. I had swung it right across my brothers face. I slapped Ayato. My vision became more blurry, and I began to feel lightheaded. I slapped my brother, I really did it. I could faintly hear Thoma's voice on the background ye all something along the lines of "Ayaka! How could you!" But before I could respond, I could already feel my head hit the cold floor.

I opened my eyes to find myself in a hospital bed. I immediately sat up, what was I doing here. A tall man with long green hair wearing a doctors coat stood in the doorway. 

"Ahhh, you're awake," he said, "you passed out, due to exhaustion." I passed out? Oh no, what if I missed it, what if she already woke up? What if she thought that because I didn't wait for her I never cared about her? what if I don't have a chance to Apologize? What if I can't tell her how I feel? 

The doctor probably saw my clearly distraught face, and guessed what I was thinking. 

"Don't worry your  friend is not awake yet," he put a pause between your and friend because he wasn't quite certain what they were. 

I immediately got up and rushed out of the room, I ran down the hallway. Room 178, Room 179, Room 180. I stopped when I reached room 181, Yoimiya's room. As I opened the door I could hear the doctor tell me that I wasn't allowed to go in. I just glared back at him, and I shut the door behind me. 

I saw her laying there, so peacefully. Her face was so perfect, so beautiful. Why did she do this, did I really mean that much to her? Tears formed in my eyes, they rolled down my face. I am so sorry, Miya, for everything I put you through. I am so, so sorry. The tears began to roll down in larger numbers, eventually leaving my face soaked.

I pulled a visitors stool up to the bed, and I laid my head down on her bed, next to her arms. I let my tears sink in to the bed. I thought about how much I needed to say to her, how much I had to explain. 

Please wake up Miya

I need you

I love you

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Hello, the next chapter will likely be the end of this book, and after this I think I will write a Cynari fanfic. If you would like to check it out, feel free. If not, just keep enjoying this book. Anyway, I think now that it is almost done I will give the book a proper description. So goodbye!