Nights with you

Falling to parts

 Falling to parts

These parts are stretching me thin

 My heart wants you to stay

 But my mind is fighting against my heart

The endless battle that rages against me

 Heart telling me she is getting better with every meal

But my mind reminds me that she gets better before getting worst

Nights long as I watch her decline

Days where I watch her get better

 Nights where she forgot me, her granddaughter, and talked about the past and say's words that stick like bullets, but morning comes and it better she remembers me and who I am

Nights and days two different people, both who I love dearly, but slowly I dying mentally from lack of sleep. And the battle that rages inside emotionally

The nights where I try to keep awake to make sure she ok

Make sure she is breathing

 Because I can never forgive myself if she stops and I'm asleep not even 2 feet away.

The days where I can laugh and joke and remind her that she, my favorite person ever

 People tell me to sleep, but how can I

I'm working myself to the bone

 Pretend I'm fine when half the time I can't remember the last time I got a full night of sleep

 because she is awake or asleep, and I'm tending to her awake and having panic attacks when

 she was asleep, making sure her breathing regular

 For this is someone I love who was my first best friend and my biggest role model

 And taught me to stay in school and work hard for everything I want.

Taught me lessons on love and life

 Made my laugh and taught me that everything is going to be ok when I feel like it not

Who reminds me of when I got scared out of my mind that "Al, it going to be ok. "

 who I laugh with and have late nite conversations with "

Who will I have them with now