What I couldn't change

Bad things happen and you can't do anything about it : Chapter 1

Caroline's P.O.V

Sometimes I wish I wasn't sent to boarding school at the age of six. Yeah that's right, I was sent to boarding school when I was just six years old. What kind of parents do that shit? Mine!!!
Arggh but whatever, they didn't have money to keep me in day school so I guess it was for the good.

It was Sacred Heart All Girls Boarding school, it wasnt too bad but I do have one problem...
I never got to mingle with boys, I never got to talk to one (teachers don't count) or know how to react when they flirt with you. Can I also blame this on my parents?

After much pleading, I was out of boarding school when I was nine years old and instead of going to a private school like I had suggested, I ended up landing in a government school.

Come on Caroline, you are so hot, I mean look at those lips... I can show you endless possibilities and unlock the wild I know you have in you. It'll be so much fun...just one kiss come on, let me be the first girl you've ever been with.

Yeah noooooo, very freaky, spare me Lord!!! A girl tried to kiss me in the bathroom, so im guessing she was lesbian. I was so scared that day lol, I thought I was going to get rapped. ..maybe it was my inexperiance with love, boys girls, kissing, whatever but hell I'd be damned if a girl stole my lip virginity!! I try to erase that flasbback from my memories.

It was sorely for that reason that I managed to wiggle myself out of a government school and into a private school. If you want your mom to take you out of the school you are in right now, just tell her you almost got rapped by a girl. Trust me, it worked for me and it will work for you!

Curro Bankenveld High School...a very fancy name for a very fancy school. Its my first day here and im now in the 10th grade. This school is huge but with only 500 highschool learners including me ofcourse. I hope no one can see just how lost I am..I tend to look like a loner at times. Im an introvert but im an extrovert at the same time. I love people and socializing but I do have days when I want everyone to live me the hell alone.

Seeing as to im soooo lost and can't seem to find my way, it'd be a good idea to ask someone.
"Sorry maam, where are we supposed to line up? Im in the 10th grade and im also new in this school" I seriously hope I don't sound lame. OK I judge myself too much, I should stop this nonsense

"Just go through this door and to your right, you will see the quad and that's where you are going to line up every morning with all the other kids"

"Oh thank you so much" I put my fake smile on. Its not that I hate this random lady but I don't know her and my momma taught me not to smile at strangers...ok, even I have to admit that my thoughts are stupid.

"What's your name girly?" Seriously? Girly? My grandma call me that...well atleast I now know the range of this lady's age.

"Its Caroline Sunders and you are?"

"Mrs Hickling...The principal of this school?" Okay that's just fucking great! Not only does the principal know my name and my face but I am going to be under her radar now. Also how embarrassing to not even know the principal of your own school..Arggh, I just though it was just a random old looking lady..oh well.

"Oh, well nice to finally meet you, I should probably get going maam, I wouldnt wanna be late!" I say as I walk off in the direction she pointed out for me

I can seriously count all these kids and get to 500 before the afternoon.
This is one of those schools where everyone knows everybody I guess...how fun.

There is a poster written GRADE 10 just ahead and quite a number of people have already lined up infront of it. Well I guess thats my line...im about to meet my soon to be classmates or friends.

I like standing in front so I walk to the front, ignoring the fact that there is already a line..I guess you could call me an arrogant bitch but hey its not like its a queue to get your order from a McDonald's counter or anything.

"Heyyyyy, how are you? My name is Gina, oh my word, what's your name? You look pretty, our uniform suits you..gosh sorry I blab too much"
Yes, Yes you do Gina. This is weird but I like her vibrancy...we are total opposites

"Hi lol, im Caroline, nice to meet you Gina...and thanks for the compliment"

"Arghh, atleast pretend to be happy to be here come on Carol!, can I call you Carol?" Who Is this chick and why is she telling me what to do?

"Carol is fine..I hate school but I guess if I hang around with, it might just get better hey!" I put my best smile, even showing a bit of teeth, hahaha that's oscar worthy

"Have you seen the new hotties yet? I personally like tall, light skinned guys.. YOu should see the guys in this school like seriously, we don't have a lot of talent but this year has brought us hot guys rain to save us from the ugly guys drought we were in!"

"Haha, okay, I actually like you Gina...I personally don't want to date because I want to focus on my school work and boys suck anyway and love too, and boys dont pay bills but education does"
Gosh I hate the way I sounded. I was like some understudy motivational speaker or something. Oh and yeah I lied....ofcourse I want boys and I want boys to notice me and think im hot! Even if its just one boy!! gosh, you could say im desperate...But love does suck #no lie... okay it sucks on me

"Well girlfriend, I think I just saw my tickect to paradise in that hot piece of muscle over there so imma scoot closer to him if you don't mind"

"You go enjoy yourself and put your flirt on, I'll wait for..." Aand she was gone before I could even finish my sentence. Gee, the girl was so quick but I admired her man hunting spirit...if only I had such courage, oh well im supposed to not like boys so im going to pretend to do just that.
Its funny how uncomfortable and figitty you start to feel when a friend walks away from you and you are left alone. Ahhhh I just said friend, well I guess my brain has registered this Gina person as a friend. I start playing with the straps of my backpack and I hum a melody of bitch better have my money by Rihanna.
Lost in my hip-hop world, I start singing the actual song and soon, a group of boys are laughing.
Surely, they are laughing at one of their lame jokes but it doesn't take me a while to realise that they are actually laughing at me.

Oh Joy.

They are all laughing and I feel sooo stupid and embarrassed, this is bad....I probably now have a rep of terrible singing at a school that I havent even had three hours in. Arghhh whatever, atleast I made their day.
I look at the group of boys and give them my sarcastic smile.
With a confident voice, I shout out "Atleast I sound better than your mothers!"

They have all stopped laughing, YES!!!! HAHA you can't defeat Caroline.
As Im basking in my glory, the boys all look at me and that's when I see him.