The Usual

Prologue

Ngayon ang flight ko pabalik ng Pilipinas. After years of working in Switzerland as Doctor, finally, makakauwi na rin ako for vacation. I think I had enough time to give financial support to my siblings. It's not my responsibility, though. It's just, I'm a Filipino and I needed to do that. I like it  that I can buy their needs. I am the eldest. That's a tradition.

I came to a not so rich family but I admit that we are rich. My parents are both lawyer, but they don't want me to take law. Gosh, I hate it. Kung  yung ibang magulang gusto nilang sumunod sa yapak nila ang mga anak nila pero 'yung parents ko? Ayaw.

Honestly speaking, hindi ko na siya naiisip compared noong mga unang taon ko dito sa Switzerland. But now, I'm just wondering how he was or did he already achieved his dreams or what he was supposed to achieve. It's sad that we just ended like that, without a proper goodbyes. It just.... ends. But, I'm okay now. It has been long enough for me not to moved on. I am just wondering.

I was just checking if I packed all the things I have to pack when my best friend suddenly sent me a text. She's a lawyer now. I am jealous of her. That's what I wanted to be. But, I guess it's just not meant for me because, I didn't fight for it enough to achieve it.

Athe

Hello, my besties! Agath! Now is your flight, right? So, you have time tomorrow. Make sure to make time for tomorrow! That is my first ever hearing. Make sure to attend. Kayo ni Shin! Love you two and take care!

I smiled after reading her message. I will attend her first ever hearing. Time flies really fast for us talaga. Parang dati lang hirap na hirap kami sa course namin pero ngayon — we are getting there. We are so close to achieve what we are dreaming for.

I replied sa gc namin. She sent it sa gc naming tatlo nina Avergshin. Irieysh Avergshin talaga ang name niya, Shin lang ang tawag namin dahil masyadong mahaba. Si Chelsey Athena naman, she's our lawyer friend. The one who's inviting us to her first ever hearing. Athe is her nickname. Mine is Phoebe Agathieys but they called me Agath.

Back then when we are in highschool, students in our campus called us Tripple A because of our second names. It's cute, though. Medyo sikat kami sa school namin noong highschool, hanggang college naman magkakasama kami. It's because of our achievements. We are over achievers eversince, that's why we are known sa mga dati naming school. That's a flex.

I started to get ready for my flight. It's six in the morning here in Switzerland and my flight is 3 PM. I needed to get there sa airport by 10 AM. I just take a bath and cook myself a breakfast upang hindi ako magutom sa airport. I also bought foods for me to eat it while waiting for my flight sa may airport. I am really really excited. I'm excited to see my family, friends, and all of the people I'm expecting to see. Not him. Definitely not him.

I finished getting ready by 8 AM. I booked a grab papuntang airport. After half of an hour, I finally arrived sa airport. I just sat sa vacant sit while waiting for my flight. This is it — I'm getting there. Just a little bit of time. I'll get there. That's a promise to myself.

I am happy while taking this path — being a Doctor. But sometimes it lingers to me that, what if I did have a chance to achieve what I really what to....back then? Will things became different? Will I be happy, genuinely? Wouldn't I be able to suffer because of the hardships while achieving this path? But, I know that... I'll still have a hard time because of guilt. My mother doesn't want me to be a lawyer, so is my father. It sucks, I know. But, I get used to it. They're deciding for me since then. I hate it. But, sometimes it just appears to my mind that it's better this way. I was able to achieve the success I want to achieve because of them.