My Husband Doesn't Love Me

Final Chapter : FUTURE

"Are you sure that you are not gonna come to my cabin? We need to talk, I'm not gonna wait for long," he said on phone.

I was so embarrassed at what happened in the car that I could not dare to face him. He was such an expert at kissing and I, on the other hand, sucked. I bit his lips and they started bleeding because in my mind came weird thoughts.

What would he be thinking about me? Does he think I'm a loser? Such thoughts were making me lose it all, my heart was pounding like a drum and I could not focus on the file lying on the table. I was getting anxious, I could not stand still and I started walking to and fro with my legs trembling.

"How long are you going to walk around like that?"

I didn't even notice he was already there, looking at me . I was surprised by his sudden call and I was about to slip when he caught me.

"Close your mouth unless you want me to kiss you."

He was making my heart beat the fastest possible. He helped me up and fixed my hair. I was still avoiding his eyes, he grabbed my face into his big, veiny hands and said, "It can happen, you don't need to be embarrassed. Trust me, it's completely fine."

I finally looked into his eyes and he continued, "I've dated a lot of women, sometimes I liked them and sometimes I didn't, in fact most of the times it was for business. Getting married to you was also business for me, I didn't say no when Dad asked me to marry you because business has always been my first priority, i knew how good you are at doing business. But after getting to stay close to you I started feeling something, everytime I was near you I could hear my heart beating faster than usual. At first I didn't know but now I know what it is, it's love, yes, it's love. I love you, darling! You may not be the first woman but you will be the last one in my life. I want you to trust me, can you?"

I nodded and he gently kissed my forehead.

"But you need to know one thing!"

He had a serious face on and I wondered what shock he was going to give me. Did he sleep with someone? Does he have an illegitimate child? My mind was full of such idiotic thoughts, result of binge-watching those k-dramas.

With expectant eyes I was waiting for him to speak.

"It hurts," he finally said and I looked at him in astonishment, I didn't know what he was talking about but then he pulled me closer and whispered in my ear, "My lips!"

I noticed his lips and my dirty mind wanted to bite them again. "You bit them, don't you remember? Won't you apply some ointment, I'm in pain," he whined and my eyes scanned for the first aid box.

I was on my way to get it when he grabbed me by my neck and kissed me and this time it was a long one. Like always my mind was still occupied with a lot of thoughts but this time they were all about my new journey with my husband.

I was even thinking about our babies, about how our lives will be from now on. I could not get the answer for the latter so I decided to not think about it and just live in the present and make the most of it. I pulled him closer and settled on the table. He grinned and kissed me harder and we both knew it was going to be a tiring day at office.