sparks in the air

Losing my mind

while snape dug through y/n memories he came over a memory .but you mumbles that you never had this happen.they continue on watching .you were tied on a chair and was forced to watch voldamort kill everyone that you love infront of your eyes.you start to kick and scream as you block your mind.you open your now feeled eyes with tears.you look at everyones suprezed and shocked face as you finally cacht glances of harrys scared face.you leave the room in a hurry as everyone remains in silence.meanwhile you cry while running back at your dorm.you lock your bathroom door and just break down in a waterfall of tears.you suddenly reach for a pair of scissor that were on the sink and(i dont need to explain any further).blood came out quickly .after you were done you bandage the wound on your wrist and go to sleep.the next morning you get up from bed and get ready.you wear your jean jacket,a pair of leggings(black ones ofc) and a white baggy t-shirt.you make your way to the great hall and everyones eyes where stuck on you as glue.you sit by yourself on the table and eat your breakfast.you carefully evesdrop on a groups conversation.

Kid1:yeah apperently she haves powers and is going to try to kill us

Kid2:oh my god.shes right there.she is acting so inosent when shes the devil himself.....

you hear in disbelife as you get up to leave.harrys watching on  the table from afar .he feels guitly for not saying anything and watches you walk away in tears.you walk around hogwards and no one dares to look at you straight in the eyes.you start to wonder who is spreding these lies when you pass by a tree.

D:ey guys look who it is!its the killer

Y/n:got any problems with me malfoy?

D:guys she is getting mad she will kill us!

you grad him by his collar and lift it up a bit.

Y/n:if you got a problem with me solve it.

he pushes you on the ground as he looks down at you

D:oh weasly dont test me.....nad thats true i did spred these things but.....their are true you are a killer and your gonna kill all of us!

you dont respond and just storm off.when your walking away,angry tears streaming down your face you bump into matteo..he asks you if youre ok but you keep on walkingnot looking back.you go to the astronomy tower.the only place that you get get peace and silence.you crouch over the metal bars and look down.you see happy kids talking ,laughing simply palying around.lost in your thoughts you dont realise that regulus was behind you.he finally spoke up.

R:mind if i join?

Y/n:arent you scared that im going to kill you or something?

R:y/n.....

Y/n:im a moster that doesnt deserve anything!

R:y/n....thats not tr.....

Y/n:I RATHER BE DEAD AT THIS POINT!

your powers activate as you break down in tears.you fall on your knees crying as regulus hugs you tightly.you cry harder and harder and regulus rubs your back comfortingly.you push him away gently as you get up and walk down the stairs.he looks at you in guilt as he sits on the floor.you walk to the black lake with your head covered with your hood so no one will recognise you.tears burn our eyes as they fall from your cheeks.when you arrive there you sit under a tree and get deza vu of the attack,your powers and just regret whatever you have done with your life.hours pass and you go to your dorm when everyone was at dinner and grab your guitar.you go back at the lakee and sit under the the tree again.so start to play the guitar and sing a song that ypur wrote

Y/n:Your every hour and moment

I would like to live there

Your every sorrow and joy