Him

Secrets

"Y/n?"  "Yes whatever your going to say better be good you have 5 minutes" I say trying to act strong "Y/n I wasn't  lying when I said I loved you, your my girl I love you and no one makes me feel like you do, I feel safe with you, I should have never said those things in the interview, I know that now" He stops for a second "2 minutes" I say "Y/n your making this really hard for me we need to talk in person" I look at Elle were both as confused "I'm booking a flight first thing in the morning" I sigh "Ok don't be sad when I don't open the door" I say "I love you" He says, I hang up on him. As I lay back down on Elle I think about what could have been.

Wednesday 7:00am

I decided to wake up early. I take a cold shower and do my skincare routine. I bought some fresh fruit for a fruit salad and made myself an iced coffee, I put on some light makeup and shorts and a light blue top with matching shoes. I straighten my hair and feed Milo before going out on my daily walk I put on my shades so I don't get noticed as one of "Toms girls" I get myself a Bubble gum flavoured ice cream and eat it on the way home

4:00pm

I go to my local store and do my shopping. I feel like pasta today. I clean around the house while I wait. Milo smelled funny so I gave him a quick bath and sit down to enjoy my pasta.

5:00pm

I get ready for work. I get into the tattoo parlour, and start with my first client "Can I have a Rose covering up this tattoo" I look at her leg "Adam + Layla" in a cute heart "Break up?" I say while getting the stencil ready "Yeah he cheated we were 3 years together" she looks at me "We were in love" I hand her a tissue "Have you ever been in love?" She looks up at me "I was.. once" I say starting her tattoo "But he uhm he got too busy I guess and started seeing other girls" She holds my hand with her free arm "I'm so sorry" I smile at her "No no its ok we are kind of the same in a way" She smiles "Yeah I'm glad someone else knows how it feels.

8:00pm

I finally get home and take off my shoes and change into something a little more comfortable. "Milo come here my baby, You are the only one I need" Milo jumps up for scratches and attention. The door knocks and I get a sudden wave of anxiety, I know who it is. I sit down and try to Ignore it "Y/n I know your in their I'm really sorry just please 5 minutes" I walk over to the door and I have my hand on the door handle "5 minutes" I slowly open the door to reveal him. Standing in the doorway with a suitcase and some flowers. "Come in" I open the door to let him in. "Hello to you too" He hands me the flowers and I take them and put them down on the kitchen table. "Oh I see how it is" He looks me up and down "How long you staying" I say ignoring everything he throws at me. "2 days free just me and you" He smirks "Guest room is that way if you want to put your bags down" I say sitting back down. He takes the hint and walks into the room. My phone calls "Hey Y/n Grace feels sick will you be able to do Friday night" "Yea sure need the money" I hang up the phone, Tom walks in "Who was that" "My boss I'm working Friday" Tom sits down across from me "Okay well I'll be their supporting you" He says fidgeting with his lip ring. "Yeaa Friday is exotic dancing night not singing" I say laughing "Wait what" his smile disappears. I laugh again then he laughs with me "Why are you laughing" I say "I'm just thinking" He grins and looks me up and down. "Ok night" I get up but he grabs my hand. I loo down at him and he kisses my hand "Night gorgeous" and lets go of my hand sitting back down. I walk away without saying anything and close my door and lay down.

Thursday 7:00am

I snooze my alarm and wake up at 8 instead. I take a shower eat breakfast, iced coffee, hair, outfit, make up. its now 9am and Tom wakes up "Morning" he yawns and stretches, "I'm going to walk Milo" I say grabbing his leash "Wait I wanna join give me 5 minutes. He walks back into the room and leaves me to think why did I let him back in. I still love him...

We get to the park and we sit down for a ice cream "We haven't even got noticed yet" I laugh "I love your smile Y/n" He looks at me in a way that made me feel safe "Thanks" I cough and turn my head. We finish are Ice creams and we continue to walk, we turn a corner to about 10 paparazzi and 20 fans. "Hold my hand" He says looking at me "What" He takes my hand and puts it in his and covers my face. I put down my glasses and hide with my face pressed up against his arms. "No please no pictures today" He looks down at me "You okay" I squeeze his hand " Get me away from them" I laugh still hiding "There backing off but paparazzi are still on us" We turn a corner and stop, I call for a taxi to pick us up. "I am so sorry Y/n I just wanted a normal walk.." He stops as I am moving closer to him. "Y/n what are you doing" We are inches away now "If you loved me why did you hide me" He's held back by that question, "I-im not sure I guess I was.."
I kiss him, A quick kiss on his lips "Thank you"
He stands there still "N-no problem"

1:00pm
We get home and I prepare spicy chicken wraps for lunch. I make him one and myself and we sit down and eat. It's vet hard to stay mad at him. But i need to get to the bottom of this. "Is it true what they say about you" I look at him, "Yes it's true but they were not like you.." he takes my hand "You are way more then just a one night stand" I blush a bit "Thank you" I get up and clean up after lunch, he sighs.

6:00pm

"Ok I'm going to work" I grab my bag off my bedroom floor and shut it "Can I come I promise to be good" He gives me puppy eyes. "I'll check with my boss" I pick up my phone. And text Avery my boss that we will both be coming. We walk the 20 minute walk to the tattoo parlour and I open the door. Avery nearly freaks out when she sees Tom "Wait this the boy you always on about" She points, He smiles and looks down at his shoes. "Y/n I think you should get a lip piercing" Tom looks at my lips and touches my bottom lip. "Ok you guys need to just admit it you like each other" We look at her for a minute "Fuck it give me as lip piercing" I say to one of my co workers, I sit on the chair and Tom sits beside me "Your cute when your scared" I roll my eyes and Avery tuts. 

9:00pm/Tom's pov

We make our way home. As she open the door I see her hands tremble and fall to the ground. I drop down to my knees and picks me up. "Y/n are you okay" I hold her in my arms and try waking her up. I check her pulse. Her pulse is normal and she's still breathing  I pick her up and lay her on the bed. I take of her shoes and put the covers over her. As I walk out the door she takes my hand "Please stay in here tonight Tom" She looks at me with watery eyes. "Ok" I Lay down beside her and hold her in my arms. "Tom.." "Yes" "I'm sorry" "For what" Just then her legs start to shake then her arms, with tears rolling down her face I lose hey "Y/n wake up stop Y/n" I reach over and grab my phone and dial 911. 

"911 what's the emergency" "Help my girlfriend is having a seizure I think" She's still shaking "Ok calm down lay her on her back, support her head with a pillow do not try stopping her do you hear me do not" I grab a pillow and lay her on her back "What's the address" "I- i dont know" I cant leave her side. "She stopped Y/n are you ok Y/n" "Its ok the ambulance are on their way she is just tired stay on line till they come ok" "ok" "I'm Amber what's your name" "Tom my names Tom" "Tom your doing a great job stay calm Its important you stay calm" "Yes ok"

5 minutes later the ambulance arrive to the house. Y/n is awake now but she's weak "What happened" She looks around the room in confusion. "Oh my god your awake" I hug her and kiss her head. The paramedics walk in "Hey is this your girlfriend" Paramedic 1 say's "Yes she's responsive now" The second paramedic walks in and start connecting wires and other stuff to her. "Any history of seizures? Epilepsy maybe?" the paramedic say's "I used to be epeleptic I thought I grew out of it... I guess not" "Have you ate today" I hold her hand "She has eaten we had breakfast and lunch and Y/n is a healthy person" "Stressed maybe?" Y/n nods her head "Ok well it looks like everything is ok now were not needed anymore just rest up and let him take care of you" I smile and Thank the 2 paramedics. They leave and I walk back into Y/n "Well you never told me you had that..." She laughs "You never asked me to be your girlfriend" "Well it was the first thing that came to mind" I say "Kiss me Tom" She smiles "So your not mad?" I smile "I never said that kiss me before I change my mind" She sits up and I put my hand on her back and the other in her hair while kissing her, she has her arms around my neck. After 3 minutes we break the kiss. "Thank you Tom" She kisses my cheek and lays back down "Your welcome" I lay down beside her and hold her in my arms as we fall asleep. Still in are clothes we just have no energy to change.