Why Me? [ONGOING] [16+]

CHAPTER 14

Watching the expression fade from his face was the weirdest thing. It was as if he wanted to care but couldn't bring himself to, it was as if he wanted me to believe that he was cold and emotionless but wasn't 100% sure that he was with himself . That's something that I honestly didn't need help with because that was all I saw him as. A cold and heartless man who used me for what he could gain from my family and i would never see him as anything else

He used me until he couldn't anymore and that's something that I've experienced one too many times in my life. But this time felt different because in the beginning i found myself feeling safe around him but i tell myself that it was just the fact that i knew what he was and what he was capable of. Looking back on it i should have kept my guard up because it was honestly the worst move i've ever made

My whole life has been like one big game of chess and my father has always been the one pushing me to make all of my moves and honestly they all felt right but this one... marrying someone who i don't love, someone who used me for his own benefit it just didn't feel like my father knew what he was doing anymore.

Usually i wouldn't fight him on it because there would be no point but this move it just feels like he's giving my opponent the chance to take my queen and i can't let him get check mate he doesnt deserve it

She sat there in deep thought like she was looking for her next move. I observed her looking for some type of emotion but just like me she grew up with an overwhelming father so there was no way i would find any shred of it

Just by looking at her i could tell that she wasn't surprised to see me it honestly felt like she was just waiting for me to show up even after all of the time she took for her location to be hidden

I should leave but I don't have time for it. I dont have the patience either . it's better for us to just get everything out of the way so that I can go on with my life.

I tried to fight mine and her parents on this decision but they were so set on it that I just gave up. I could tell that she did too because she wasn't at home trying to beg her parents to end the arrangement. It's much easier to just accept everything that's going to happen because if not it would be hell listening to my father scream about how I screwed up everything that he had planned.