To Be Loved

Chapter 10

Harry rolled off Louis and sat up against the headboard. Louis stared at his alpha and oh, how badly he wanted to lay himself bare to Harry.

With a deep breath, he cuddled against the alpha in a way that he could not see Harry as he stripped himself of his secrets and hurt for the alpha. He was finally going to tell someone.

"I had not presented for a long time so everyone assumed I was a beta. That was not a surprise. Reese and Peter are betas so it made sense that they had a beta son. Then I presented.....as an omega." Louis laughed in a self deprecating manner. "It was absurd. The change that happened. My parents who loved me wanted nothing to do with me. It was like they were waiting for an opportunity to get rid of me." Louis fiddled with the rings adorning his alpha's fingers.

"I went to my first 'O Festival' soon after that. I was hopeful, young, and naive. Of course, I didn't get chosen because who wants a freak of a male omega right? But I didn't lose hope completely. It took a few years and a bit of being slapped around and beaten to finally get the memo. I was going to be killed eventually. I had accepted my fate. That was why I was so angry with you for picking me." Louis's smile was humourless.

"What do you mean by slapped around and beaten?" Harry's grip around Louis was tight and his voice was strained. The alpha was holding himself back.

"Alexander Lucian wanted me at first. It was exciting because the pack alpha wanted me. He was not old either and I was young. It felt good. I believed him when he said he liked me and that he wanted to mate me eventually. Naive. In reality, he thought I was a freak and an abomination, but I was unattainable in a way and he liked winning. He wanted me as a possession. He wanted me to be one of his common whores. I didn't want that. I refused. He didn't appreciate that. He tried a few more times and each time he grew more impatient until he snapped one day—in public no less— and he decided he was done waiting around and he was going to take what he wanted." Louis's fingers were now gripping Harry's hands tightly.

"He hit me. Kicked me a few times. Then he removed his belt and his pants and my pants and he uhm..." Louis's breathing quickened. "I know I'm not pure and my innocence is gone, but I swear I didn't give it to him." Harry scented Louis, calming him down slowly.

"I know, pup. I believe you." Harry pulled Louis against him tightly and kept rubbing soothing circles on his hands.

"After that I realised no one was ever going to help me. After that I hit back and I kicked back. After that I've been cut a few times, scarred a few times and even burned once, but I endured it because I was going to be gone soon. That last part didn't really work out, but I had no one. You have to understand, I had no reason to keep going. Reese and Peter didn't really care. They just said it was my fault most of the time. One day I learned why." Louis struggled to find the right words to continue.

"One day I came back to the house with a cut on my shoulder and my t-shirt was stained with blood, but I was used to it so I didn't really care, but I was angry. Angry at Reese and Peter for not caring. I lashed out at them and they threw a bunch of papers at my face and Reese slapped me across the face. That was the first time she had ever hit me. I still have those papers. Can I show them to you?" Louis asked hesitantly.

Harry loosened his grip. "Anything you want pup," Harry said softly. He followed Louis back to his room and waited patiently as the omega retrieved an old box. He pulled it open and gathered a few papers. They were adoption papers. Harry read over them. The birth parents names were scribbled over in pen.

"I tried reading the names so many times. I just wanted to know who they were, but I couldn't make it out," Louis explained as Harry kept reading over the papers.

"Pup, these are fraudulent. The birth parents' names must be right. That's why the names are scratched off, but this is an illegal adoption. The signature at the bottom is smudged as if whoever signed it was crying." Harry looked up at his omega.