I woke up this morning trying to forget all my breakdowns that happened yesterday. I couldn't forget it, all of it would just come back. That morning I just wanted to take my heart out and stomp on it. My heart felt so broken I thought it will never be able to be fixed. I gave up hope... I gave up everything. When I arrived at school with tears in my eyes I sucked it up and put a fake smile on my face. Everyone thought I was fine but deep inside I was crushed. Every moment when I saw him past by I was afraid to look at him. What did he think of me? I hurt him... I hurt him he will never forgive me. I couldn't do it I left school pretending to be sick.. but deep inside my feelings were sick. I arrived home and laid there until night came. I stayed up all night replaying my stupid mistakes over and over again. Man! can I just rip my feelings out?
